#powderkin

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Things, for me, were the same as the show depicted. Except in the season one finale. That’s where things changed.

I don’t know why canon me would ever chose Caitlyn over Powder. She was nice, really, but she was always a means to an end. A means to get out of jail, to stop Silco, to find Powder. It was always about finding Powder.

Sometimes, I feel bad about it. I remember the betrayal and horror in her eyes when I put a bullet between her skull. But, had she really expected things to go any other way? That, when it came to choosing between a hot inforcer I’d known for about a week or getting my little sister back, that I’d choose her?

I’m sorry, Cupcake. Really, I am. I’m sorry you had to die. I’m sorry I killed you. I’ll always be sorry.

But I’ll never be remorseful. I don’t regret my choice.

I couldn’t disappoint Powder again.

- 🥊🩹💥

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thanks arcane season 2

i’m main timeline jinx but also “perfect” timeline powder

which is weird cuz i end up with memories of vi abandoning me by choice but also memories of vi dying that day

which both hurt like hell btw

-jinx/powder (arcane)

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gonna do both ask games for both my arcane kins. sighs.

for canon drugs: does shimmer count? if it does i'd say that yeah. not all that fun. shit can fuck you up.

canon headcanons:

-viktor: i've mentioned this before but transmasc autistic viktor real. also chronic pain! because i remember that! help. also had a high pain tolerance. random other Thing is that my father was a miner who died & my mother raised me alone.

-powder/jinx (use powder if referring to me though/gen!!): silly genderfluid adhd zaunite ily. also me n ekko (<33) were totally nb4nb bi4bi,,, trust!! also actually called silco my dad and isha was like a surrogate child. is that the word. i love my selectively mute daughter btw.

-#🌙🌹🔍

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vander, mylo, claggor, vi, i’m sorry

i didn’t mean to hurt you

-jinx/powder (arcane) #💻🦇

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I almost always end up slipping into a Jinx shift when I feel like this. When I feel alone. When I have no one. It seems like I never got over my trauma from back then - it fucking repeated, actually! How amusing is that?? That I'm still pathetic and weak?? Things never change for me. I wish I could heal.

-- Jinx(/Powder) (Arcane/League of Legends) (#🎼🌹)

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My story was so... different from the canon one, and while I do love Arcane for all it is I can't help the sheer terror I feel everytime I see Silco, everytime I hear the name Jinx, the way people talk about their relationship

I hate Silco, truly and deeply, there is no man walking this earth or another that I could hate with more vigor, but seeing canon... it's so twisted it hurts me

And the name... that name..., I am not my mistakes, I am NOT my trauma, I am more than Jinx, less than Jinx, I am just not Jinx!

Jinx is not my "true" self, I'm not better with all that anger and grief stuffed so deeply inside me

I'm Powder, just Powder. I have healed beyond my past.

- Powder #📋

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I wish fans didn't respond to kin calls. It's really quite irritating and disheartening to send someone a message after they respond to a kin call and find they're just a fan of the source. Especially considering in this particular case, this source is one of those more obscure sources, both fan-wise and kin-wise.

But it still sucks in general when fans do this shit. Unless you happen to be kinsidering from the source or clarify in your response "Hey, I'm not kin, but I still do want to talk if you're willing!"

But otherwise? Stop responding to canon calls. You're only causing more frustration for everyone involved and it's not fucking funny.

- Powder #🧪🧬📡

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My timeline, the one that follows canon much more closely... it's canon compliant up until the moment I killed Silco.

Even as he told me I was perfect, even as he tried to comfort me as he died, I knew what I'd done. I killed yet another person I loved. First Vander, Mylo, and Claggor. Then Silco. And then when he stopped breathing, and I stood up, I looked at Vi and I saw the look in her eyes.

She didn't know me. More than that, she was afraid of me. And I remembered Caitlyn and how I tried to get rid of her, and it finally hit me, the pain I caused Vi by doing that. That's when I realized that it was happening all over again. I was still hurting the people I loved, just in a different way.

No matter what Silco said, no matter how many times he tried to reassure me that I was different now, that I wasn't Powder anymore, that I was Jinx, but Jinx in a better way-- I knew I was still the same girl. The same girl who was a jinx and hurt everyone she loved.

I didn't finish the mission. I ran. I ran away and hid, because that's the only way I knew how to keep the one person I loved who was still alive safe. Safe from me.

I believed that all I could do was hurt people. So I thought I could protect them by staying away.

I hope that things... changed later down the line. I hope, but when I think about this timeline, all I feel is sadness and regret. I don't think things changed.

- Powder/Jinx (Arcane)