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Lose one - Gain one

Power Diary Entry 143 - Oct. 25th

I have been slacking when it come to my power diary. I was supposed to be writing in this everyday and look at me, it's been over a week since my last entry. So as you can imagine this is going to be a recap blog. You know, to catch you up.

Last thing I wrote was that I had SHI help me rid myself on my Shadow beast. Not surprisingly, I have been sleeping much better and have had a much more positive very on life. Still, no dreams - which would be amazing because they I could actually have some kind of clue to what powers I would be waking up to.

Speaking of powers, while I have had some great ones this past week (turning my body into whatever element I touch) and more weird ones (reversing gravity), I had few (aka no) encounters with criminals. I think it's due to the Cleveland Indians going to the World Series. The city is just in good spirits. Oh and if you're wondering, yes I am kicking myself in the ass for quitting my job as the batboy just before we make it to the ACLS. But every time I think about how stupid I am, I tell myself that it was a toxic enviornment (My bosses were especially cruel) and I would have never felt comfortable (I was too scared to admit my sexuality while working with a bunch of naked straight men walking around). This was for the better.... but damn it I could be working the freaking WORLD SERIES!

My college life has also had some ups and downs. The good is that I feel like I am sooo ready for my play production. Just two weeks away! I have my accent down and have known mu lines for over a week now. The problem is when I come back to my room. Kurt has been crazy uncomfortable around me. I try to talk to him but he uses as little words as possible. Finally last night I got some truth out of him.

I should preempt this by saying that Raine and I went on a date last Friday and it was much better than the first one. What was supposed to be a cute movie theater date turned into a DVD and fast food date. It was so relaxing and informal, I was in heaven! His apartment is great too. An upstairs two bedroom. He has a roommate, but she recently got engaged and has pretty much moved in with her Fiance and just sends Raine a check monthly because she is a great friend and refuses to screw him over. So, anyway we are watching movie and cuddling and he kisses me. It was a bit uncomfortable because I was reaching for a fry and he thought I was leaning in for a kiss and then he just kisses me. TO make it even more uncomfortable, my goofy ass, decided to continue to put the fry into my mouth and eat it as soon as he pulled away. Yeah, I totally was like, "Umm, I wanted a fry not a kiss" well, with my body language I said that, but I was thrilled to actually kiss him. The rest of the date was awkward so when he dropped me off I went in for a real kiss. It was magical.

We made plans for Saturday to watch Rocky Horror Picture show (the classic movie) in preparation for the Live Fox special. Long story short. That went much better. We were finally comfortable enough to be ourselves (turns out he's just as goofy and fandom obsessed as me). I even stayed the night! No we did not hook up. I mean, he tried, but I only made out with him. He didn't get aggressive or anything, but he was pretty persistent.

The point of me telling you that was so you know that I have been MIA from my normal life. I pretty much go to class, theater and then stay at Raine's. Since our first date I was over there 4 nights of the list 9. So, when I finally was back in my dorm and had a chance to speak with Kurt he spilled the beans.

Kurt told me that he just hasn't been happy. First his girlfriend broke up with him and he's been crying himself to sleep a lot (I didn't know this because he either stayed up later than me or I wasn't in the dorm). He also told me that he has been terrified that the Shadow was coming back (I could not tell him the shadow was dead without revealing my powers and that I was Multiman). He told me how he feels like I hate him for not returning the drunken kiss I gave him (which I told him I was drunk and it meant nothing - to which he looked like he was hurt to hear...).

After all this I told him I would be there more for him. I told him that I won't let him feel so alone anymore and I was sorry for being a shit roommate and an even worse friend, but then he dropped the biggest bomb on me. He told me that he was transferring to Pittsburgh University. Turns out he was wait listed and got in, but only went to JCU because his dad told him he had to, but now his dad sees how depressed he was and pulled some strings to get him into Pitt starting next semester. Because he was no longer going to be at JCU he was just going to leave early and take the time before next semester to get himself in a better mindset.

Kurt told me he was moving back home this weekend!

I felt so guilty. Other than his girlfriend breaking up with him, most of the reason he was leaving was because of me. The kiss, the shadow, the loniness - I played a part in all over it. Honestly, I wouldn't be surprised if I found out his girlfriend hated me and broke up because I was his roommate.

So, that's been my week. I've decided to stay on campus until Kurt left and try to redeem myself for being a crap friend. Who knows maybe I can catch up on some of this school work on falling behind on.

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Still trying to cope

Power Diary Entry 18 - March 6 & 7

This weekend has really messed me up. After the events on Saturday I went MIA. My friends have been trying to get a hold of me - especially Shay and Mikyle but I just had no desire to interact with anyone. My mom knows something is up too (a mother always knows) - she periodically came in my room all day Sunday. 

She'd find any excuse to bug me. One time she came in and started rearranging my dad shelf. She didn't say anything to me either - actually she was talking to her self, "hmm, silence of the lambs. I've been meaning to watch this again," she'd say. 

Then she grabbed toy story and began humming, "you got a friend in me".....subtle mom..... 

 Anyways, I didn't sleep well at all Saturday night so no powers. All I could see was that poor dead lady's face everytime I closed my eyes. So no powers Sunday. 

 The same thing for Monday too. I just had a weird dream about my teeth falling out and that sure as he'll isn't a power - at least not one I would ever want so I didn't even try looking into what power I had that day. 

 The only slightly interesting thing that has happened to me since Saturday was avoiding Shay like the plague Monday. It meant skipping two classes, but I didn't mind. It was nice hanging on the scaffolding that made up the set for our musical. I had time to breath and empty my mind of all the crazy that my life has brought.

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Did i just become the villain in mown life story?!

Power Diary Entry 17 - March 5

After pretty much showing Shay not one power, but two. I bolt it out of the house and down the street before she could question me anymore. Because i am one of the only seniors in my high school without a car, i had to take the bus home. Instead of taking two different busses I decided to walk from Dea’s house to downtown Cleveland and just take the train. 

While downtown I went to grab some food. My cousin had been telling me about this gyro place in the Arcade so I walked over there. Now the Arcade isn’t an arcade with like games and stuff. It is a fancier place with shops and a small food court. It’s connected to a lot of offices and apartments so its a place that men in suits frequent a lot. 

I guess this hardest decided that it would be a great place to rob someone. I know what you’re thinking, oh this is a perfect opportunity for Julian to use his powers to be a hero. I thought the same thing, but remember this is the weekend where bad goes to worse. 

There were three guess in hoodies and thee weird face mask that just covered the mouth and like like dinosaur teeth or something as painted on it. Two guy pulled out knifes and started harassing the tables in the center of the foodcourt. Another idiot stood on the balcony above them and addressed the crowd. He told them no one would get hurt if they just gave the goons in the food court their money. 

Well, like i said, these guys were idiots and didn’t take into account that security guards were posted on one end of the arcade. Someone must have told the security, because they came running into the room (obviously stupid security as well.) The cops were unprepared, because little did they know the lead hordes idiot had a gun. When the cops came storming in. He grabbed a little old lady (she couldn’t be more than an inch over 5 feet) and held the gun to her head. 

So, now you’re probably wondering why i didn’t kick some ass with my telekinesis powers. Wel...

1. I hadn’t practiced with the power yet and didn’t know if i could use it properly.

2. I didn’t want to expose myself - to the civilians or the guy with the gun. 

3. What was i supposed to do too the guys with my telekinesis and chance throwing the old lady??

Either way, anything would have been better than sitting there and doing nothing. I froze as there was a bit more yelling from both the goon and the cops. The situation was getting worse and the old woman looked like she was going to faint from the pressure the goon with the gun was putting on her neck to hold her steady.

Well, thats when I got the bright idea to use my powers. You see, there was a giant poster of Lebron James hanging in the middle of the Arcade. I thought if i pulled the poster down I could use it to capture the guy and save the day. 

I pulled the poster off the wall easy, but having it both fall on the hoodlum and tie him in it proved difficult. I only managed for it to fall over the balcony. There was a lot of yelling from everyone around and then there was a gunshot. The entire place got quiet and it was clear it came from under the poster. Moments later, the idiot goon came darting out from under the poster and booked it to the back of the arcade - his friend close behind him.

When the old woman never came out from under the poster it was clear what had happened, but I decided to check anyway. The cops had darted after the gangsters and I was the nearest to the poster. Why did I look?! Why did I do that to myself? I had to pull that stupid poster away and see that poor bloody woman lying there. 

It was my fault. Why didn’t I let the cops do some negotiating? Why didn’t i let the situation resolve itself? No one would have been killed. Who cares if those gangsters stole everyones money, at least then they could all go home to their family, but that little old woman would never go home.

I am the worse excuse for a hero. I’m the villain. 

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Another power -another person who knows.

Power Diary Entry 16 - March 4

I wanted to come in here and eve about this awesome weekend I had with these amazing powers I received, but my weekend went from bad to worse. 

Friday wasn’t too bad. I didn’t have theater practice after school, so i didn't need to face Jeff and that hella awkward situation that happened in the men's locker room.

After school the girls invited me over for a wine night, which is usually my highlight of the week/month. However, I didn't take into account that having the ability to walk through walls and the being drunk / unable to walk straight might turn into a disastrous combination.

Long story (and night) short. I got a bit too tipsy and stumbled into a wall, well I should say straight threw a wall. I have to say it was lucky that only one of the girls saw me (Shay), unfortunately it was one of the smarter girls who wouldn't let me explain it away with drunken logic.

Keri and Dea were in deep conversation in the other room. (another long story short - I used to date Keri and when she gets drunk she cries and brings up the past. But now I have a thing with Dea, but I don't know if I want to pursue it or what - I don't know) Anywho, so they were unaware of the big debate Shay and I were having.

Fortunately, all it took was a little more wine to have her start second guessing herself and before long everyone was asleep. 

Bad, right? one more person knows about my powers. Well, might know. It gets worse!

So, the next morning I wake up hungover (obviously) from a dream where I am moving things with my mind. This would have been a dream (metaphorically) come true, but when I woke up the couch was hovering several feet off the floor. With (you guessed it) Shay on it. Sure enough the couch comes falling down. I catch it just in time for it to not crash into the floor, but not in enough time to stop Shay from hopping up from feeling like she was falling. 

She’s a smart girl, so she looked straight at me and said “So it wasn’t a dream.” I told her to keep quiet and that I needed to go because of a family emergency and darted out the door.

Bad, right? Well, it got worse! (cont. in next post)

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Between a rock and a hard place

Power Diary Entry 15 - March 4

Another crazy day, which turned into a crazy (drunken night) for me. Yes, I woke up in my basement. On that cold nasty cement floor! 

So what happened was I dreamt of walking through walls. It’s as straight forward as that. I was running, but for some reason couldn’t stop and I was headed toward this brick wall. The next thing I know. I’m going right through the wall and walking up in my basement.

So that power was super easy to figure out. Now actually walking through walls was a whole other story. I thought I could work the power just like I did with flying and just confidently go for it. Turns out, this power doesn't work that way. I ran my head straight into the wall 3 times before I gave up. The power didn’t really come to me until later when I was in class.

I was sitting on the desk, laying my head into my hands because i was so tired. The closer I got to drifting off the more I felt this weird tingling in my elbow. Next thing I know, My elbow goes straight through the desk and I am falling to the floor. I was the bud of every joke all day. I couldn't be mad though, it was pretty funny. Im just glad no one saw HOW i fell to the floor. 

So, after that I learned how to use my power. I went into the locker room in the basement of the gym and tried phasing through the wall. I stood on one side of the lockers and tried walking straight through. I pushed my hand against the medal and just let my body relax. I felt that weird tingling sensation like my hands had fell asleep and inch by inch i began to walk through the lockers. I could feel a cold chill go up my arms and through my chest as I felt the metal slip through me. 

I was so focused on the power that I hadn't noticed that someone came into the bathroom to pee. I walked straight through the locker and stumbled into this guy that was peeing. I shouldn’t say some guy. It was Jeff, this volunteer from the local college that had been helping out with the play. 

And it gets even worse. I scared him so bad that he jumped away from the urnal and I saw EVERYTHING. I was so mortified that I said sorry and bolted out of there like a bat out of hell. I’m sure my dark skin could not hide how red my face was.