When a mother brings life into this world, no one ever warns her of the beastly plague that so mendaciously preys on so many of us.
It is like a never ending tsunami of
Never feeling worthy enough,
Never feeling good enough,
Never feeling normal enough.
The mind will play tricks on you.
It will make you feel incapable.
Incapable of raising the precious lives you were blessed with
Feeling like God made a mistake when He chose you to be a mother.
Wanting nothing more than just to disappear and never look back.
Every day is a fight to survive,
It will swallow you whole.
It is never wanting to get out of bed
It is paralyzing, always.
It is like every bone in your body breaking into a million pieces.