So strange, it seems to me, in the summer.
Been very sleepy the past days. Am starting to resent myself. *sigh* But, what's the use? It won't change the fact that I slumber more than I used to. And there's simply no way to win over my body. My eyes really drop. My brain stops functioning properly. Am scared to force myself stay awake or I might find myself kissing the floor again. No, that won't happen again. One cut in the lips is enough!
Am holding myself real hard not to let out a rant. Just, at times, I can't help it. Especially whenever I see people posting status on FaceBook announcing it's already SUMMER. For crying out loud! There is no need to state the obvious. I hope they won't say it anymore. It's sticking out like a sore thumb.... it IS summer! The season which I don't like has come. Oh!
And, it's made its entrance with a bang! The glaring sunlight hurts not only my skin but my eyes, as well. A time when I rather stay in my cave more during the day time.
Went out to Market Market! yesty before lunch. I conditioned myself to be fine whatever happens. I'd say I was successful. Was able to be in control of my behavior. But, my body wasn't able to bear it. As soon as I was back to my hideout, I was down like stinko! I had to cheat time and adjusted my shift later in the night. Still distracted. Absentminded. Almost unaware of what I was doing.
This is going to be a serious challenge for me in the next weeks and a month. It will also be the case with poor Kiro. "Wawa". *frowns*
Actually, there is an easy solution--AC! What is the use of my airconditon unit if I am not gonna use it, right? But, I gave it a thought... and I agreed with myself that I rather put up with Summer's heat than be impractical paying some ninety-hundred PhP just to make my life comfortable. Whoever's not suffering, right? I am gonna fight harder to be a good ..better.. best... steward of God's blessings. And, I am not gonna waste hard earned money away for my own indulgence. It has to be shared. Am sure Kiro won't mind using the fan. He has his own, I have my own. That should be good.
Determined. Content. Joyful. Happy. Me. ^_^