noticed i've been drawing a lot the past few years, but not doodling. And I really don't like that tbh... I like a balance of both. But it really pains me being unable to play around with shapes... and honestly it's also key to drawing stories out... Right now I can only do stupid thumbnails and it takes the joy out of it when your shit looks like a stickman.
like for example (and this isn't about the result mind you, just the mindset)
I was aiming to draw *more* of the same idea, not just draw one thing, call it a day and immediately starting to render it. It literally takes out so much energy out of me onto something I can't say I particularly enjoy? Like okay the idea is cute but where is this even going, you feel me?
Not everything needs to render... but I've lost touch with my doodling side. It's like I feel uncomfortable getting lost in the sauce of my thoughts. Painting takes you out of exploring, it's more like problem solving... ~_` guhh
