#pre-split panic

[playitandmakeitsincere]

my throam (maybe) hot-take

The Heart Rate of a Mouse is not primarily a love story.

I couldn't figure out why it gripped me so much as a teen but reading it again now that I'm old it's kinda obvious.

It's a story about finding a home.

Ryan is a fucked-up kid from an upbringing that made him think he could never really be loved by anyone who knew him. He had this hope that he'd found a home with Mrs Roscoe but it got shattered and he gave up looking for so long because he thought that was his only chance.

Brendon is a lost kid who had to leave his home and is desperate for the security of it again. He gets so used to being transient that he's willing to settle for Shane just because he thinks that's the best he can get.

And neither of them can let themselves have each other because they're so broken they can't believe they're allowed it. They can't trust it.

But they figure it out and they build their family in Jon and Sisky and Spencer and Vicky they finally accept that they can both 'try to have one'. And Ryan does build his home with a Roscoe, just not the one he expected.

[screamingfrenchfries]

forever so funny to me that panic literally has a song called "time to dance" and yet they decided that CAMISADO was the optimal dancing song

[soup-is-nice-sometimes]

warning brendon mention + also excessive usage of brackets and like no punctuation/formatting except for paragraph breaks iM SORRY

sick and tired of ppl saying panic went to shit after ryan and jon left like yes it downgraded (compared to afycso my fave album from them) B U T ian (even tho he was only there for a few years) and dallon (who stayed on til 2017 oh how he put up with a lot of bs over the years) rlly kept it from tanking in those key years imo

like dallon is credited w writing most of v&v (with the exception of "nearly witches" - ryan wrote that) and all of twtltytd (is that even the album name idk i dont rlly listen to post ryan panic sorry not sorry) and he played bass not only for the end of pretty odd touring but also as part of the band til 2015 and then continued touring til 2017 (plus apparently brendon stopped him from releasing a song w 21 pilots which is actually why im writing this lmfao) like

dallons writing was on a similar level to ryans and it feels mean/unfair to reduce those albums that he did write to "shit" bc ryan wasnt there

and yes doab has a couple of bops (crazy = genius and also la devotee imo) but overall they dont cancel out what is mostly a shit album (ok yes dont threaten me w a good time is okay too but he did NOT make those high heels work good lord) esp cause there were literally none of the ogs except brendon on that)

and ofc pftw is ass if i ever hear high hopes or hey look ma i made it i actively try and leave wherever i am (they fucking played high hopes at a skate night i went to WHEN I WAS COSPLAYING RYAN ROSE VEST)

also side note fuck u brendon for continuing to play camisado after ryan left even tho it was like the one song he asked you to stop performing it cause it was rlly personal to him AND YOU DIDNT LISTEN (ofc all the songs were personal to him but camisado was one of the ones that he specifically drew on his experiences w/ his father to write)

also side note 2 imo panic died when spencer left (2013) but was temporarily revived til dallon left (2017) and brendons been dragging its corpse around for the last 6 years. and idc what anyone says the touring artists he played with do not count as panic cause no offence but like their title says theyre TOURING ARTISTS (like how dallon didnt consider himself a part of panic when he was touring w em til they asked him officially and then when he "stopped contributing creatively" - his words) like i rlly doubt ppl can name them off the top of their heads (altho theyre underappreciated for dealing w brendon)

if you've read this far PLEASE feel free to comment (? is taht what its called here) and/or reblog w ur additions/opinions im fairly open-minded abt others ideas!

[avaryy]

ryan ross, live in denver 2/?: time to dance

[mikeywayat2005warpedtour]

Ryan Ross <3

[gerardwaygirlmoments]

Panic! At the Disco Paramore MCR

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Game-changing song moments in emo history featuring the word “whore”

[p1ckthep01son]

i suppose i should do a proper post about meeting jon last night! we took pics but i keep my face off of this account so i'm not going to post them here (they are on another site if you feel like hunting yourself) but he's filling in for the bassist of spitalfield on this run of shows with hawthorne heights and armor for sleep! i got to meet someone from all of the bands and i'd been pretty friendly at spitalfield's merch before the show so i went back to say hi again on my way out and jon was there that time so i said hey and introduced myself! told him about the decaydance stuff i do online and he was really excited about it, especially when i mentioned the young veins. ("you know that one too?" was the quote on that). he even threw in a little pretty odd reference which i appreciated lmao. we took pics and he made sure i got some good ones before i headed out and when i was waiting for my uber outside he passed by me again and tapped me on the back to tell me to get home safe. it was so cool, everyone in all the bands were super chill and sweet (even when they were being swamped by all of us saying hi). i got some stuff signed and pics with everyone, it was so great. live music >>>