No, I haven't proposed yet. I'm not even dating her right now. In fact, I still don't know who she is. God is still telling me to patient although He has changed His answer when I have asked about her. Makes me really excited to hear His new answer. Whether you think there is "the one" or you think that there is "the best one", being led by God in this area is still one of the areas that requires the most faith for me.
As much as I love the intimacy with God, I still very strongly desire to have a family of my own. To share all the days of my life here on earth with that perfect person God has picked for me. One of my biggest prayers is that I will be the man that God has created me to be. To be the man that He sees when He looks at me. To be who He says I am. For I know that being a boyfriend, fiancee, husband, mate, and father someday is included in that.
Since that is still such a strong desire for me, I am doing all that I can right to invest in my marriage. As I continue to invest, God has revealed so many things to me. I have found that the way He loves and leads me, can be translated towards my marriage. Between reading books by amazing marriage counselors and listening to stories from mature Christian couples that cherish their marriages, God just blows my mind. The very things I'm reading and hearing are exactly what He has been teaching me. Not only through prayer time, but through His Word as well. As I continue to keep my eyes fixed on Him and allowing Him to lead me, I can translate those same principles to my marriage.
Ephesians 5:25 "Husbands, love your wives, just as Christ loved the church and gave Himself for her" (HCSB)
God desires that all marriages be modeled this way. Everyone understands, whether they believe it or not, that laying down your life for your mate is the example that we ought to live by. But how does that look in the day to day? If God wants us to love our wives as Christ loved the church, then we must understand how He loves us, His church.
As I continue to be loved by Him which manifests as allowing Him to lead me, the more equipped I am to love other people. The more that I adapt and learn to love other people, the easier it will be to love her when God decides to bring us together. In this way, I will be able to love her JUST as Christ loved the church. I will be able to give myself for her.
