Alright so I’ll probably never tell anyone irl this but a week ago, actually, I heard about the first GSA meeting in my hs and I was so excited because nobody in my friend group was queer and sometimes I felt a little alone, so I found the rm number and there was a rainbow on the door and everything and then I took a deep breath and opened the door, feeling as if this was maybe the moment, that maybe all of the things that I were impossible actually were,,
Then I looked inside. There was a bunch of people, talking and laughing. They looked happy. they looked like they belonged. and i would have gone in, i would have, but I could feel all of those eyes on me, my parents in particular. They were staring. They just kept staring into the back of my head and I just couldn’t do it, because it was scary, you know, walking into the room.
I walked back down the hall.