I only realized that I had a crush on you when I was already in high school andignore it eventually. We used to tease by our classmates way back and I don’t knowthe reason why. It just made me conclude that I think I used to hate you then and they believe in the old saying that “The more you hate, the more you love.” a silly mind playing in their thoughts. You always make fun of me to the point that I throw things at you and get angry at you. But there are times that we hang out and played around together with our friends and classmates.
There is an instance that happens that until now I still remember, you said annoying things to me and continue to make fun of me in front of our classmates and make me run after you until you close the gate of our school that leads to a minor accident. The lower edge of the gate hit my right limb that causes it to bleed. The good thing that happens after is you helped in cleaning and curing the wounds. Herbal leaves are traditionally used to apply in the wounds to lessen the bleeding and as herbal medication. That incident will be part of the past but it will still leave mark until now.
We had the chance of exchanging messages from years of not having a communication and being apart from your place because I had to study in the metro. We had a chit-chat every night regarding what happens in our lives for the past months that passed by and even talked about plans in the coming years to come. Until one night you said that you loved me and I didn’t replied you and ignore. The reason why I did that because I know you are just fooling around and for Pete’s sake you have a girlfriend. I am not the person who will tolerate myself in entering a dark place without knowing how to get off. I just pass of that incident and forget about it.
Until I visited my hometown and we meet again with our friends during my small celebration of my birthday. It was one of the unforgettable birthday bashes I’ve ever had. And we continued to communication starting that moment. We talked about the future lives we we’re be having and again you declared your love for me. From that conversation I really said no to you but I never say yes also, you said that you will wait for me because I am not ready to commit a relationship back then and you promised that you will do everything to prove to me that you are serious and will do to make me proud of you. Honestly, I don’t feel any intimidate feelings towards you then (UNTIL NOW) but I just live to fate if you are really true to your words.
God is really good and true to His words because He will never let you fall into a wrong person. I am not angry nor had grief to you. I just don’t feel you now. Well, we’re still friends anyway and it will never be more than that.
