Fin I'm so sorry. I miss you. I think about you every moment of every day and it hurts. I miss you so much. You were the light in my life and made me feel special and beautiful and intelligent and just... Loved. Sometimes the recording of your solo comes on and I cry every time I hear it. I miss you. You're so busy and stressed that I don't want to message you and bother you, but I can't just let this sit on me. I don't have anyone I can talk to about this and it is killing me. I regret breaking up with you. I didn't want to. I miss you. I never stopped loving you and it's so cheesy and stupid and I hate myself for it and its so unfair to you. I hope you're well. I hope you're not stressed. I hope your job is going well. I hope your insurance covers your surgery this summer. I miss you. I love you. God I want to say that to you directly again. I want to hug you and never let go. But I don't think you'll ever find this. if you do... Wow. I'm sorry for everything I've out you through. I miss you, my Mulder. Sincerely, love, M











