#princessofchina

[opulentnoire]

[marusketches]

Hoy la lucha empieza🎶 I don’t know the lyrics in English but the song could easily be my anthem . . . . . . #mulan #disneyprincess #princess #princessofchina #china #disney #art #disneyart #artofdisney #character #characterdesign #artist #artistoninstagram #arte #illustration #illu #paint #speedpaint #sketch #doodle #everydayidraw #sketchdaily #dailyart #warrior #girlpower #disneychallenge https://www.instagram.com/p/BtzREhBBJWB/?utm_source=ig_tumblr_share&igshid=13hj06uts0ni3

[rosiross]

When you arrive to a nice place and then @Coldplay start playing 🎶🖤 ~ #goodluck #luckygirl #coldplay #bands #favorite #music #china #chinalife #princessofchina #nowplaying #rihanna #placestogo (at 寶安中心區)

[spacenebula]

I could've been a princess, you'd be a king Could've had a castle, and worn a ring But no, you let me go

Rihanna

[turtleshelldweller-blog]

Princess of China

I can’t stop. And I have things that I could do but I don’t want to. So it just keeps going and sometimes I’m looking at nothing and sometimes I’m looking at you. And it wasn’t until a couple times through that I realized that this song is about you and I. Of course I’ve heard a million sad, depressing songs that I could say fit you and I, people who are broken and apart, but wow. If one fits like a T, it’s this one. Do you think it fits well? I’d like to know.

I was realizing I was queer when I was with you, but it’s only been in being apart that I’ve fully stepped into myself and my sexuality. And I know that that’s a good thing. But you still “stole my star.” So much hope that I was trying not to build up in you, I had it in me anyway. I knew we weren’t perfect, but I couldn’t imagine anyone knowing me better than you did. Even when I see pictures of you, I don’t see a stranger or that cliche “somebody that I used to know.” I see the other half of myself that has been ripped from me. Even if I was the one who ripped you off finally in the end. 

The one thing I will never understand is why you didn’t fight. Why didn’t you fight for me? Why couldn’t you love me enough? Being me--full on INFJ--I only realize now and then how much I still have internalized you and all I that I feel about you, both positive and negative (how is it that I love you despite the hurt more than feel angry towards you?), even though it’s been so long. I’ve never been hung up for so long. Will it take a year or more?

One of the reasons why I’m thinking about this now--besides the song, which I’m still listening to, on repeat--is because I just got a friend request on Facebook from a girl I used to talk to. She was the first one who put a warm fire in my stomach, even if it was small and brief. Why does she want to be my friend now? Even through reaching out, I am reminded of how many have let me go--you more than anyone. I don’t understand how I wasn't enough for you, why I didn’t matter enough to you, and if I will ever be that for someone.

Sometimes I want to keep you in my heart as the only man I ever loved. Not that I want to write off men all together and only pursue people on the feminine spectrum. But sometimes I feel like I’d be off better with a woman, or at least not a cis-man. And you hold such an intense place in my heart, I don’t want that touched, even though it’s gone and in the past. Sometimes I want you to be the only man I ever truly fell in love with. The only man I ever slept with. The only man I actually wanted to go the distance with. The only man that has ever tried to truly know and be known by me. 

Thank you for not being a shitty person. I still love who you are, even if we won’t be able to make each other happy anymore. I can’t imagine right now who is going to make you happy in the end. Will I be the one who got away? For me you are the one who fell away, to something greater than yourself. I will never understand all the pain and suffering you have experienced in your life. I always tried to understand, to empathize, but I can’t. Maybe that’s why you are such a great ally, for a white, cis-man. Ha. I hope that you know that you make this world a better place. I hope you know that you have made me a better person. We could’ve built a castle, I could’ve worn a ring... Sometimes I really wish that we had. In an alternate universe, would we have gone on and on together? I’d like to think so. 

[pluxoxo]

Sometimes human dont even realize or care how much they have hurt other people feeling & destroy their hopes or life .. once I'm hurt i will always be hurt to recover i always runaway or kill 'The Old Me' and change into something new & stronger .. if u can't beat them we join them and kill them slowly .. #PrincessOfChina #Coldplay #Rihanna (at PETRONAS Twin Towers)

[margheritegialle]

magic is everywhere 🔮 #glow #neonlights #coldplay #princessofchina 💜 #electraheart94 #badgirlsrules #maredentro

[alejdeleon]

Princess of China