@prinsessemelodi / continued from here!
mindless thought transitions into mindless sentence before he could stop himself, brain too fried by the medical files he hat to go through for his clerkship at his school’s hospital to think his words over before unleashing them. it’s an unprompted thing; how it occurred to him as he read about a patient’s medical history he’s not supposed to share but might discuss with Melody once he’s done with his work.
the silence had been HELPING, just hearing Mel’s paint strokes and sometimes the rustling of the cloth or the paint brushes having a soothing effect on his mind as he read through diagnosis and conditions and patient’s life’s summed up in neat tables full of content that lived between gut-wrenchingly bad and mildly amusing. it’s training himself to be a better doctor, to become a person that is ready to deal with whatever is coming at him. he is glad he’s at the point of his education where he could decide what the future holds for him ( gynecology; he wants to help bring lives into this world than living with the absolute stress and trauma of not being able to save them. just the thought of a dying person under his hands is nauseating to him ⸺ though he hardly ever said it out loud, he knows that Mel knows him enough to have figured it our herself, without prodding him for confirmation. )
registering her dig as she sits the water glass down on the table, busy hands put the papers away with a SIGH, nearly about to dig his nails into his temples to decrease the tempting chance of a migraine settling in. maybe a break is good for him, but at what cost? Mel’s voice is not as mocking as it used to be when she regards him with one of her trademark ... well, not insults, per se, it was never mean-spirited; but assumptions about his character of lifestyle. they decreased once they’ve gotten to know each other better, but idiotic statements like the one he let loose have always been opportunities Mel took to get a rise out of him, and to get to know him better, too. or that’s what these things always ended up to be good for.
“you’d be surprised, I did MORE than just play chess in my youth,” he deadpans, looking over to her across the table and taking a sip of the water in front of him. “but if you really want to know, my wild past is behind me, yes, since medical school is not a place to live your craziest life and you might have noticed I am prone to ... worry a lot. which is why I have you, since you make me worry less.” musing on, HONESTY bleeding through his words and making him sway away from his faux-mocking tone. a small smile appears on his face but he swallows it down with the next sip of water, throat always too dry when too busy with spending time in his medical world than to care about eating or staying hydrated. ( his doctor hates him, already, and jim is not making it better ).
straightening his posture and regaining composure, neck and shoulders cracking from being in one position for too long, he leans back in his chair, elbows on table, fingers playing with the now nearly-empty glass. “after a nasty fight with my dad, I got into my head to RUN AWAY from home ⸺ I was fourteen, mind you ⸺ which resulted in me spending the whole night in our local hospital. the nurse staff kept me entertained and while I begged them to let me live there forever, they called my parents the next morning. which was the right thing to do, obviously. but, yeah, that must have been the most excessive thing I’ve done, except for the occasional make-out sessions with your high-school sweetheart.”
letting his own anxiety at the single memory drain out of him with every breath he takes, using the silence between them to cock his eyebrow at her, asking in CURIOUSITY: “what is the most impulsive thing you have ever done, Mel? since you’re less of a board game person than me.”