#prioritizing is hard

[steppedoffaflight]

I had my heart set on taking a big fat nap after work and then writing but I totally forgot there's a penguins game at 7 😭 so perhaps I will simply drink a red bull and write instead of napping

[yume-x-hanabi]

I want to replay the Xillias, but I don’t have the time...

[moredrasticmeasures]

one thing i’ve noticed in life is that when someone begins preaching at you to prioritize your life, they don’t actually want you to find out what’s important to you and make it a priority, they want you to take whatever they think is most important and make it a priority

i.e. my top priority is college. when my boss fusses at me to prioritize, he doesn’t mean spend more time on the things that are important to me, he means spend more time at work

[kevin-ries-watermelon-aesthetic]

I also want sc evo though...

[bloomingteaspoons]

Frustration Levels: RISING

Edit: Discovered I have other things to do tonight, and decided to put on my big girl pants and tell my Dad ‘no.’ I also got my deadline for my troublesome article moved forward a few days so I can stop freaking out about it. And to hell with the freezer, I will use a cooler and ice for the turkey I need for Thursday until we can get the freezer some other time because I CAN ONLY DO SO MUCH AT ONCE. 

So there. Adulting like a boss.

Now, to continue sneaking writing because today is quiet and why the hell not.

I love my family but fuck's sake, I don't live on the farm anymore! I have my own crap to do! AAAAH! ...Ok, now that that’s out of the way...

Today I have a “job interview” with an old boss, which will basically consist of me getting put into the company’s system again (or updated, not sure if they ever took me out). I’ve definitely got a sales associate position, but I have to impress the district manager to get the key holder position that I want.  

I had a plan to buy some new black slacks that I’ll need for the job’s dress code, maybe pick up an interview shirt, and say hello to my friends working at the mall tonight. I was then going to go buy some mail envelopes I need, some groceries we REALLY need, and then try to get home in time to run over to the Farm to pick up a freezer cause lol, I need two turkeys for Thanksgiving/Friendsgiving and I was hoping to avoid the REALLY crazy pre-holiday grocery shopping.

Now I’m going to have to leave right from the new job to get home and change, because my father sent me a text begging for help sorting apples and I suck at saying ‘no’ to family. It’s going to be hard as it is because he was hoping I’d do Farmers’ Markets for him every Saturday, but LOL mall jobs, particularly key holding ones, kind of need people to work on weekends and I am NOT risking my potential key holder position for one single day a week of helping my family out. 

I just... ugh. I know they don’t mean anything by it, my poor dad’s just trying to keep his business afloat in a world where no one respects farming anymore (the teenagers he has working for him actually get MADE FUN OF by their friends for working there... the fuck? Cause flipping burgers is so much more glamorous???). But I’m trying to get my feet under me, trying to be the adult I supposedly am, AND finish NaNoWriMo before my deadlines pile up. I’m not really a farm girl anymore. I’m a woman with a husband and a house and bills to friggen pay. 

Oh yes, and we have to finish moving out of the apartment we vacated like two months ago, this weekend. And I’m doing a market for my Dad tomorrow. And I was hoping to have friends over to write and brainstorm because even though I’m REALLY close to hitting 50k words, I might get stymied due to not knowing where the story is going to go next.

And I’m hosting two Thanksgivings. I’m not sure what I was thinking.

And I have an article due the same day as Friendsgiving. 

And four more articles due the following week.

And a new job to start December 1st.

X_x 

Fffff. Ok. Rant over. Moving on and sneaking some writing in at work so I can get my count over with and then work on articles. Yes. Just keep swimming, or something like that. 

Fffff.

[give-a-new-perspective]

I really just want to cuddle and play Pokemon FireRed

[eclecticopposition]

I am actually crying because I am too inspired to sleep and I wish that I wish that I wasn't because I am too exhausted to function properly but damn if the writing doesn't flow