#private yo.

[wreckedtho-blog]

[fixedatversa]

I wish I didn't care so much. I really do. I want to go yell at Alex and tell him he fucked up, but I can't really scold him. I haven't spoken to him in a while. Not sure if I want to. I don't know how it would trigger me. That entire situation is fucked up, though. But we're all pretty fucked up in here, aren't we?

[fixedatversa]

Fuck fuck fuck fuck fuck. Please don't be actually angry. Shit. Fuck. Way to go, Sierra. You've fucked up another good thing in your life. You might as well just push everyone away at this point. He's the only one that cares about you. And when he stops, you're alone. There's no point in living. You'll always be the fat fuck that can't do anything right. God, need to just...go stand in front of a mirror. Pick apart everything. I need a good session with my mirror....

[fixedatversa]

He told me he loved me. And I just....I don't even know how to function right now. He said it. He fucking said it. And I can't stop smiling. I love him. So goddamn much. And now I know for sure he loves me.

I just wish my head wasn't such a mess right now.

[fixedatversa]

No. Nononononononononononono. Stop. Don't talk about abuse. Please, please. Fuck. Fucking Christ. No, don't relapse, Sierra. Don't go back to your thoughts. Go find Josh. Go find him. Please, fuck. I just want Shane to go.

[dualscreendamage]

My mom was looking through my phone earlier and I had a mini panic attack like... *don't go into my mp3 downloads* *don't look at my PiCTurE GaLLeRieS* *don't look my KIk meSSaGes* *DON'T LOOK AT MY InTeRNET HIStorY* and most of all *DON'T LOOK AT MY TUMBLR...!!!!!*

[fixedatversa]

I love how I can’t be happy with him. That….that makes me feel great. He’s not gonna leave me. I know that. I just…makes me feel like shit. 

[fixedatversa]

.....is it bad I could hear that growl in my head after reading that? 

Yes and no. Yes because it's bad for my sexual health. No because unf. 

I love it when you get this way.