just watched a zoom lecture on finding what do next in your career and it was super pleasant. the man was very chill and had the most meditative voice ever. ngl i zoned out on him a few times, but i heard his wisdom! his actual words were v professional and sweet but essentially he was like fuck what you know about career and just do what you want to do. find the intersection of what you know/done before, what you want to do and what challenges you. and hes like a *job* isn’t gonna make u feel worth it however *JOBSSSSS* will. a career is made from many jobs, a lot of experiences! nothing is linear and its literally ok to jump around.
i mean i kind of knew this but it was super comforting to hear from a professional. ive been getting a load of rejections lately and feeling super lost and unmotivated so this lecture definitely helped. it was interactive so he gave us a few prompts to identify our own thing accomplishments and challenges and what we want to do. after unapologetically writing down how i feel, i think i found my next step.
the resistence im feeling is cuz a) i still think i should be what i studied or at least dip my feet into it and b) i wanted to be the few that actually made it as an IDer. i spent 4 years doing this thing and i wanted to get a good job within it and ~change the world like apple~ but i am truly not fit for it. at no point in my life have anyone ever said wow u would make a great product designer or your forms are so nice and inventive or your craftsmenship is amazing (which are skills i think every IDer should have). i was fairly good at just making a nice presentation of my work and that was it. i dont even like CADing! i mean i’ll do it but it wouldn’t be the because i thoroughly enjoy it. i am ok at sketching but that too isn’t something i love to do.
i remember how fucken excited i was to go to my book designing class. it was a gd class that focused on laying out a magazine-book that included page layout, type setting, illustrations/graphic imagery and the technical aspect of book publishing (i.e. indesign work, going to a printing press factory, etc). i mean the instructor was amazing but it was also the content. we spent a few classes looking through books and looking at their layouts and cover designs and it really got me going!! i wrote about that in the session and i think i should send out feelers and see if this is something viable. i was sad that i didn’t get to produce enough work of my own to be good but it was one of the few classes that i truly enjoyed (and also question why i didn’t pick GD in the first place?? but also made me feel super insecure and how out of fucken practice i was in doing GD work because the kids i was sitting next to were fucken next level)
