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Update!

I haven’t written an update in a while, so here goes. August is almost over, and I seriously can’t figure out where the time has gone. While I’ve been consistently hitting my step goal at least 6 days a week, and often 7 thanks to fitbit challenges that hold me accountable, my workouts suffered some. Mid-month I suffered some bad workout related anxiety and I avoided the gym. It directly relates to my fear that other people are watching and judging me. For a number of reasons. That I’m weak/slow/etc. I know that logically, people aren’t focusing on what I’m doing, but I still really struggle. I’ve planned out a workout schedule from now until the end of September. It has me working out as regularly as I can, Tuesdays/Thursdays/Saturdays/Sundays. It even allows for a few half workouts, split over two days so I can accommodate appointments/etc. I’m really hoping this helps with some of my anxiety, and that I continue to feel better. I've been working out at least 3 days a week, but I'm now working on 4 days each week, knowing if I ever need to I can blow one off and it's okay. I just have started “Zombies Run” and am loving it. I’m using it with the treadmill, or the elliptical, as well as just outside walking. It’s been fun! I’ve been consistently below my calf pie goal daily and I’ve cut my calories (per my trainers suggestion), and have just yesterday disconnected my fitbit from my myfitnesspal account, as I worry the additional calories earned by my walking are stinting my weight loss (often it’s 300-800 extra). I’ve made some big changes to my diet, including limiting my late night eating, or eating a pouch of baby food instead. It sounds silly, but it’s less than 100 calories, tastes pretty good, and has loads of fruit and vitamins. It satisfies my want to eat, but without me bingeing on junk food (as was previously the case). I’m still working hard to get my water in everyday, even though some days it’s hard. I see a new trainer Monday. I’m really nervous because he’s a guy, and I don’t know him. I comfort myself by knowing that he’s always seemed super nice, and patient when I’ve seen him train others. I just always feel better talking to a woman. But. He’s here to help me. I’m a little nervous to check in with my measurements and weight/body fat, but that’s okay. It’s a good chance for me to remind myself why I’ve recommitted to my health. And to remind me that even though I had a rougher month, that all is not lost. I’m still trying. I’m eager to see the scale start going down with my reduction in calories (don’t worry, I’ve compared the numbers with my BMR, and I’m fine). Also, I’ve decided that if I don’t see the scale start changing/my body changing when I look that I’m going to make an appointment with my primary doc just to check me out. Would be silly to have a thyroid issue or something and not know. I really am hoping that with this decrease in calories though, paired with my workouts that the numbers will go down. I’ve let go of my “not going into 30 while weighing more than 200 pounds” and am instead really wanting to get myself into a healthier state of mind and being by then. I’m a work in progress, and while I could bust my hump just to meet that goal, it’s more important to me to make lifestyle changes that I can live with. To be a happier and healthy me. <3 Whit