The Azkal
10.May.2011
Dear Phil Younghusband,
I don’t know what you’re doing in my dreams last night, but it was quite surreal. It was way different from my other dreams with Leo, Topher, or Zac. And I haven’t even fallen in love with you yet.
It’s a dream within a dream. Quite an inception, you had there. So vivid, and strangely real to me. Never was I been so attuned to my emotions, senses, and surroundings while in a dream. Seemed like I remember everything.
We seem to have a very special relationship in the dream. Our eyes met, we smiled, we connected. I’m no Angel Locsin, but I feel (so haba ng hair) so giddy… and happy in the dream. I know, you make each other happy but nothing serious yet. I’ve read the news. LOL.
You seem like a nice guy, and I guess you could be the type of person who would have me as a friend. I’m not sure though if you could fall in love with me. But you did mention that you like a girl with a nice smile, kind and funny. But then again, I’m not as gorgeous as Angel. =) well, I’m not judging you or anything. Let’s just go back to the dream.
I was there in a scene during your practice, watching you…I feel so proud of you. I think you gazed back at me, smiling. Now, you look like your brother James. There was a scene when you asked me to go with you somewhere… where there are people celebrating something. I couldn’t remember their faces. You seem to be the only face I see.
My dream was so piercingly detailed, that I feel so special in your eyes. Like seeing myself for the first time, through a charming guy’s point of view. I’ve always wondered about that. If there is someone out there that could be so curious, just by looking at me, and would want to get to know me.
Maybe we have this special kind of friendship and getting deeper. I don’t remember you holding my hand. But of course, I seem to be (the usual) so awkward of the whole thing. But you seem so caring, so respectful and thoughtful of me… and I was wondering if we already kissed or we’re still in the process of getting there. (just for once, in a dream.. I wish a guy would lose a little respect so I could finally have my first base.. please??? LOL)
Then there was your mother (how on earth would i know that she’s your mom)… not sure what she’s up to. Or what she represents in my dream. There was my good friend… I was telling her all about my dream. That when I woke up (in some parts of the dream), and slept again.. the dream continued. I wanted to ask her something… I looked at her and her eyes seem to tell me something. Maybe I wanted to ask her the meaning of all this. But I guess she already knows that I know the answer… then I woke up in my real world… with a heart full of love and a huge smile on my face…
I’ve never felt like this before and it seems so real, beyond weird. It’s the closest thing to having a real boyfriend for the first time. And I have you to thank for… you’ve made me realize and experience (however virtual) a shred of hope to falling in love someday. Too bad, didn’t have the chance to update my FB status in the dream.
I don’t think this is sad, I find it so romantic in a supernatural sort of way. We have brilliant minds and they work in mysterious ways. Now, I know what it really means when they say a dream come true (literally)… when I get to meet someone like you.
Phil, you may have this growing relationship with Angel, but could you say that your souls connected? I just had the most romantic dream and I feel sad that you didn’t even know you’re in it. Now, why do I have to be sheepish whenever I see you on print ads or TV? Bizarre.
See you when I see you,
Paige