-This morning was relatively quiet, which I didn’t mind because I was able to read a bunch. After S went to her day program, D came out eventually and told me why they weren’t talking all that much this morning. What was thought was going on between S and L, from her day program, was in fact happening with this new guy N.
I’m pretty sure L knew all about it, and is playing aloof so as not to destroy S’s trust in her. But I’m pretty sure she knew. It’s apparently been 2 months since it started. Which was, apparently, around the same time S’s “menopause” kicked in again.
As a guy in his 20’s with NO knowledge of menopause, I know for a fact it doesn’t cut out then come back then cut out again. Biology doesn’t work like that. Thinking along those lines, it’s easy to realize that L knew about it, supporting S’s myth that she has early onset menopause. She’s even told me she knew stuff I didn’t know that could destroy their marriage, and who she was talking to was S when she arrived at the day program too.
What’s funny is this happened the same way me and M’s relationship ended. I snooped and found something I didn’t want to find, even though I was looking at it, and the relationship imploded from there. This is the 3rd time this has happened between S and D, and I know for a fact that I’m not going to go through it with N, or whoever she tricks into thinking she’s sane after him.
IF what happens happens, and along the lines I think it will. I’m going to be moving back to NYS before the end of the year. Who knows, I might have to do it before or shortly after my birthday the rate it’s going.
Also D made mention that if she’s gonna do this with a guy, then maybe he should find a girl who would do it. I’m pretty sure he already HAS found the girl in that LH chick I found he befriended twice on his secret facebook page. I’m pretty sure she’s also the one he was posting flirtatious comments to.
No wonder I went for M when I did, especially thinking that what a guy is meant to do is find a woman who reminds him of his mother. I thought that was the trick to a lasting relationship. It wasn’t until I was confronted by S’s actions again that I realized that everything she does, is every reason why I hated being with M. The fact that they looked similar around the same age doesn’t help either. I don’t have the heart to tell D that S will NEVER learn. She’s going to constantly bounce from one guy to another as soon as the original guy wears out his usefulness, or she finds someone who she can dilute with her lies enough to think that a healthy relationship will flourish. All in the hope that she can finally get over her daddy issues. Which is all she’s looking for, a guy to take care of her much in the fashion that she was taken care of by her father figure.
For some strange reason this morning, I woke up and saw that L was awake before me. Something that rarely, if at all, happens. The thing that I found strange was when I saw her standing there getting dressed the only words that went through my head was “puta madre” which is basically “mother fucker”. I don’t know why I kept thinking these 2 words over and over again, but it took a good few minutes before I was able to fully think clearly.
Could I have been pre-cognitive to today and how everything was going to play out?
I had a dream the other day that I was going around and telling everyone to “hit me”. Then the next day, either by coincidence, fate, or because I had the dream, I took out my boxing gloves for L to use on a wall or something, because she was in a destructive mood. While she was wearing them I told her to punch the door frame, which she didn’t want to. Then I started telling her to hit me. Hit me!
Before I said it the dream flashed through my head, and so I might have said those words on account of the dream. But still it seemed eerie that it happened so closely after the dream.
D is now out “trying to get the car fixed” which might be true, or might be a half-truth because while he’s out getting the car fixed he might also be out with that L woman.
Looking over my sleuthing document I noticed that he went to her page more often than any other girls FB page. Multiple times in the past month, 2 weeks ago, etc. If I were to hack the laptop again I’m pretty sure I’ll find her name yet again in his most recently browsed history.
-I’m going to buy a Harley Davidson Livewire when they become available to the public. I haven’t seen a bike I’ve wanted more than this one. It’s got the sleek look of a crotch rocket, but from a company who KNOWS how to make a motorcycle, it’s reminiscent of their original design, but modernized. The other thing about it is that it’s completely electric, and the thing that really sold me on wanting it was the fact that when it gets going it sounds EXACTLY like futuristic electric vehicles would sound like.
Link: http://youtu.be/P54sjBdYhwQ
-Watching the 5th episode of the 8th season of Dexter and holy shit! is the DP on this episode fucking fantastic. Great choreography in the opening scenes and when they show Vogel post abduction they keep the camera only on her, heightening the viewer’s fear of what would happen to her.
Also I feel sorry for Masuka, he’s a one-note character who had a small arc near the beginning where he had an existential crisis, but other than that he’s stayed the same. And now because of the end of the series looming they write in this random daughter showing up who they’ll have a B-story running every once in a while until the end of the final season. I hope it works out for him, he’s always been there to throw a dirty joke in.
