In nearly 4 years since my sister’s original sickness, I admit I have struggled to emotional bond with my writing to create the best writing I can, and now since her breast cancer in the last 7 month’s, I have struggle even more. I know I still want to write, but I seem to want to change weeky between various writing subjects. These stories are: Project 9, Project File 2, or continue writing the back story to the manuscript Project A. My thoughts and emotions change weekly, if not daily. I mean the only story completion in since February 2010 (since my sisters original sickness) was Project File 1, and even that was difficult to write, despite having about 40% of original content from my 1990s story Project 4 (1992). Sometimes I ask myself if I’ve pass my expired date with writing, and should have produced my manuscript 20 years ago. With all honesty, I as a writer wasn’t ready as writer back then to revealed my writing to all, except family. But I don’t think that this is the case, and it is just that my sister’s breast cancer has impacted me emotionally, and that I struggle to applied emotional content to Fiction writing, while dealing with current reality, as I can change the outcome with Fiction, but not with Non-Fiction. As for now, I’m unsure what writing to produce in 2014, as it’s Project 1 (1989) 25th anniversary next April, and I feel it needs to be celebrated. The Project stories has been a major part of my nearly 27 years of writing, and I do feel that some sort writing project is required to mark the personal milestone. For those who may read this posting, I am opened to any thoughts and suggestions. Or even anyone else has been through my experience. Much appreciated.