Strong Possibility
I’m currently reading Catcher in the Rye by Salinger. Well, not currently as in right this minute, that would make me bloody impressive at multi-tasking wouldn’t it. It’s the book I’m reading at the moment though. It is my book right now. It’s odd really, because it does actually feel like it’s MY book whilst I’m in it; engrossed in it that is. You’re supposed to read it right? If you are male and you have a brain worth a damn that thinks thoughts. If you’re growing up or wise to the fact that you’re not growing up, then you’re supposed to like it, to relate to it? If above all; you want to be ‘got’ then this is for you?! I love it. I mean, it’s really something. I’m only a quarter of the way through but that’s because I’m savouring it. Trying to make it last, like an overpriced drink at a nice bar I don’t want to leave.
I’ve decided that when I write this blog, I’m going to attempt to be consciously aware of what I say and how i say it. Basically, I’m going to try to sound exactly like Holden Caulfield in my narrations. Don’t worry, I’ll fail. Usually when I write I end up being a complete word-wanker. No. More like a sentence-wanker if that’s possible. I always struggle to keep my lines short, but that’s what I’m trying hard to doing now. I’m hoping it’ll be a bit easier in this ‘diary’ than it is when i’m writing a film review or an essay or some crap. I’m going to try to be honest too. And, since my blog is also likely to be full of my photographs and design stuff I’m going to try to be honest about that as well. I try not to produce anything too weak. I do endeavour to honour my naturally high standards. So, anything that’s interesting or that has a good little story to it, I will share; good or embarrassingly bad. If i’m lucky then maybe you’ll leave an honest comment on a post or two. I can handle your horse-shit.
I’m not sure i’m going to say all that much, all that fucken often. I hope to. Maybe I’m hoping to find like, my voice or whatever. I don’t know, but I will write something to accompany each post. Even if it’s just a couple of thin, and like I said, ‘short’ lines. Something that doesn’t take too long to jot down. That’s the other thing I do when I write. I take a fucken age. I’m gonna try to speed up. I don’t want this to become a burden. More importantly though, to do with the honesty thing; the longer I take rounding a sentence, the more likely it is to be full of stinking rubbish. If I’m quick, then I reckon I’ll not only be telling the truth, i’ll also be telling it in a style hopefully similar to Holden’s; playfully candid and to the point.
I had a shitty, deflating kind of thought earlier today when I was considering what to say to introduce this thing. I unexpectedly brushed on the realisation that I don’t really do anything in life that means all that much. I guess I make people happy by giving them artwork they love. But I don’t have a passionate hobby or a strong belief in anything much more than living your life ‘right’ and being a decent person. I have interests though and the things listed below certainly excite me, but people have stuff that they go fucken bananas about don’t they? I’m relatively reserved on the other hand. I hope that by embracing these following topics more tightly I can wake the fuck up a little bit. By trusting the law of attraction theres a chance I can get more out of these things AND get what I want out of writing and posting about them too. On that note I’ve called my blog Strong Possibility.
(Strong) Possibilities are
Photography and design for money, reading fiction and writing crap, alternative living as a property guardian, film buffing and the dream of directing, understanding other people, up-cycling and revamping furniture, trying to understand my own thoughts and erm feelings, cooking gluten-free meals and cooking shit-hot meals, digging deeper, using strong language for effect, using foreign language for effect, the world at my reach and whatever the heck else comes up