@protcgo from x because YOU’RE A MONSTER
this is not the life he’d planned to give her.
i don’t pretend to know the challenges your facing. the worlds you keep erasing and creating in your mind.
isn’t that what’d she said, all of those years ago? when he was pursuing a political career, and she had been working to open the clinic? isn’t that what she said after he nearly drowned their DAUGHTER because he’d been too depressed to save her.
percy remembers the bright-eyed doctor who offered him a world no one else could, and he remembers stomping out every bit of it with his SELFISHNESS. all he had wanted was to love her, and so many things got in the way -- her pregnancy, his pride.
her apathy shakes him to his very core. he feels her exhaustion radiating from her palms as he holds her hands. it’s not the answer he’d been expecting, even though they’ve begun rekindling this barely-burning flame.
“i don’t need a legacy. i don’t need money.” he begins, bringing up her hands to kiss at her palms.
“if I could grant you peace of mind. if you could let me inside your heart…” percy leans his forehead against them. he remains silent for a long moment. he realizes what is important now, after too many years. he yearns for the days when they were just PERCY and AUDREY.
“let this moment be the first new chapter: where i decide to stay.” he meets her eyes once more, as his own shine with tears.
“and I could be enough. and we could be enough.”
percy swallows. this is his last chance to give her happiness--or at least some semblance of it. his lips tremble, and he feels like he’s shaking from his very core. “i’ll resign.” he says softly. he knows it’s too late, but if he could make one final grand gesture in penance for all of the pain he’s caused... would that be enough? “i’ll leave my post, and we’ll go away from this world--from all of this, and i can finally dedicate myself to you. and only you.”
