Oct 13, 2020
13/10/2020:
Stuck in November - PSJS
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13/10/2020:
Stuck in November - PSJS
Me: Hey DR, that memory wipe thing you were working on, can we do that? Just want to forget today.
DR: What? I mean, yes, but you and CO are usually so...You both value memories and how they make up who you are, the good and the bad. You gave a huge speech about it.
Me: There are always exceptions.
DR: What’s the exception?
JPT: She found pictures of me from my modeling gig.
Me: I AM SO UNCOMFORTABLE
WD: Oh no. There’s like eighty accounts. How are we going to tell which one’s him!?
Me: ...There! The pretentious black and white profile pic!
WD: ...Oh my God you were actually right.
Me: And you said I don’t know him.
“People always get all up in my business asking what I’m doing and where I’m going. BITCH I’m either going to get ice cream or commit a felony, I’ll decide in the car.”
— Me
Like FUCK it hurts that I went into it all so wary, knowing we wouldn’t ever become friends, but then everything happened and everything he did meant so much to me, and then HE reached out to ME and got me to trust it all. Like maybe we’d actually be friends. And there’d be one more person to see when I came back. And as soon as I was in, as soon as I finally let myself believe him, he left without a word. He broke it all. He built me up just to leave me behind. And I shouldn’t have trusted it, but he convinced me to trust it. Fuck.
PSJS: Oh sorry, you’re breaking up!
Me: This is a magical phone call, you dick.
PSJS: *stomping on the magic charm*
Me: I can sEE YOU!
“Absence is not the opposite of love.”
Me: So I’ve just got to show up over and over dressed like a desperate space hobo and HOPE you recognize my face even though you’re complete shit at that?
PSJS: Yep
Me: I do all the work, you really need to start bringing something to the table.