SARAH ELIZABETH FABRAY
AGE: 34
BIRTHDAY: (April 10th, 1990)
RELATION: Full
TYPE: (solo/twin/etc.) solo
GENDER: Female
PRONOUNS: She/her
ORIENTATION(S): Fluid
FACE CLAIM: Anna Camp
JOB/SCHOOL
JOB: Owner of and Guru at Peaceful Harmony
ALUMNI?: Alumni
ABOUT
homophobia tw, religion cw When Russel and Judy Fabray had their first child they placed all of their expectations for their future on them. They were told that they would be having a boy and that’s what Russel always wanted. A strong Christian first born son to pass all his knowledge to and raise as the strong family patriarch he should be. You can imagine his disappointment when the baby turned out to be a girl. Sarah Elizabeth Fabray was born without her father’s approval so she then grew up seeking it.
While she was the loved by her mother and raised to be the good Christian girl she should become. Sarah pushed hard to gain her father’s admiration. She learnt the Bible and memorised key passages. She would be the first to volunteer at church and get involved. Outside of church her father channeled some of his desire for a son onto her. She learnt to be strong and to walk over people before they could walk over you. To be a titan of business who could provide for the family.
Sarah grew to be the perfect example to her siblings and a strong confident Christian woman. Yet no man was ever good enough to fit with Sarah’s and her parents expectations of the perfect Christian husband. As she grew Russel and Judy would match her with boys from other well respected families but it never felt right. There was never any spark or as Sarah would put it they were just wet flannels with no backbone. So while she waited for Mr Right, Sarah channeled her energy into her work. If she wasn’t going to have success in the love department and start her dream family she would have all the success in every other aspect of her life. She went to PSU studied hard and was top of her class to became a corporate lawyer in New York.
Sarah flew through the ranks at the firm with her tact skill and no nonsense approach. She had a very strict schedule that kept everything perfect and moving nicely. She had a personal trainer and kept strong kickboxing. She met a lovely man and was engaged to be married and she was on course to become partner in the firm. But when her father’s scandal came out it was devastating. The man she thought was the perfect Christian man. Who showed her faith and taught her all the qualities and things she should want in her life was a liar! While Sarah tried to hold it all together the scandal cracked her foundation in such a significant way what everything began to fall apart. Sarah didn’t look at her faith in the same way again. It didn’t have all the answers and how could her father teach and pretend to be the Christian man he was and lie. The further Sarah looked into herself for answers the more unresolved trauma she unearthed. The main one being that she definitely wasn’t straight. But women marry men and create families as god intended. Suddenly Sarah didn’t fit what she always believed was the narrative for everyone. This paradine shift meant she became an outsider in her mind. How could God leave her high and dry like this with no answers. She couldn’t talk to anyone of the faith for fear of prosecution. This internal struggle resulted in the breakdown of her engagement. Her fiancée calling her a Jezebel and harlot for wanting women. That the devil had gotten to her. But he haven’t. She had just discovered this side of herself that she had pushed away.
Then she lost out on the role of partner at the firm. Turns out when your father who is well known in the business world has a huge nationwide scandal they don’t want your name attached to theirs. In fact they fired her and kept her away from the high paying important clients. It was a true kick in the teeth. Sarah had given everything to that firm. She worked constantly. Never taking time off, always on call and getting the best for her clients. She spent time money and all her energy to get to the top and all they did was take her success for their own and push her aside. Then the final straw was when she lost her parents approval. Sarahs head was scrambled. Her father was an adulterous, she was queer, her engagement was over, she was still queer, and now she had lost her job. So she headed home. To whatever sanctuary she had left in her mother. But as she laid on her mother’s bed crying about her losses and seeking comfort she came out and her conservative mother after losing her husband couldn’t have a queer daughter with no prospects. She threw Sarah out.
There she was distraught wandering the streets of LA in the middle of the night. Her perfect hair matted, her perfect makeup smudged with mascara running down her face. One of her jimmy choo heals snapped. No where to go, nothing to do, no one to love. Sarah took to a bar to drown her sorrows. She had reached such a dark place that she thought why not end it all. She was a disgrace to her family and to God. It was as she was drinkunly wandering to find the nearest bridge that this person stopped her and spoke with her. The first person with no judgement. That is how she met Guru Daksha Kumari. Daksha took Sarah in that night. Gave her a safe place to crash and the next morning Sarah awoke to Daksha doing yoga stretches and chanting mantras while this enchanting smell of incense filled the air. Sarah although a novice joined Daksha that day and a whole new world was opened up to her.
Chakras, energy, healing, vibrations, crystals, meditation, Sarah found a whole new world in holistic medicine. She went on a journey of heating around the world and learnt from shamans and healers. She healed herself and gained a whole new outlook on life. Accepting God in a different way and embracing a many faceted spirituality. She discovered spiritual gifts and could see people’s auras. Sarah left the corporate world. She left New York. She left her material things and she left the religion she knew and found a new life. Now she lives by energy and auras. She works with a higher power and all this discovery allowed her to accept her queer self and the love she can give to anyone. Upon returning to LA Sarah started Peaceful Harmony retreat and specialises in chakra healing, meditation, and yoga. Helping people unlock their true spiritual potential.
