Working with a deity for the first time and general brain dump
I had been working really hard on self improvement (which I have fallen off of but that's for later) and was noticing in my practice that I felt like someone was reaching out to me. This was like three months ago btw. So I was doing some general research until I got a very specific sign. A specific sign from the Roman Pantheon (which I was the most comfortable working with because I am Italian-American and I know when my family moved to America). I felt both very intensely about this being the correct deity I was feeling but because she is a minor goddess I was a bit insecure. Now I am not, I am very happy to work with her and I feel so much more confident with her influencing my work.
Have I neglected her recently because of company, job hunting, and midterms? Yes. Did the offerings I gave her today help? Partially, she seemed to think they were okay and were a good start to make it up to her since I have been neglectful. Yeah, I know. I think the wine and flowers were good I think I'm going to get her a new set of amethysts for her.
What's frustrating is despite doing weeks of research about signs from deities and then researched Psyche to make sure I wasn't misinterpreting anything is that I feel like I can not talk to anyone about working with her. Yes, I know she is not very well known but there are at least a hundred Roman deities. Not everyone can work with Bacchus or Minerva. And working with them is great, don't get me wrong. But like a lot of online witchy spaces only really want to talk about major deities and I think that's pretty unrealistic. Especially because a lot of these spaces can be pretty uninformed at times. Maybe I'm just being sensitive because not many other people want to hear about Psyche and how much I like working with her and how excited she is for me about some of the introspection I've been doing and the life changes I am making for the better.
Okay rant done, it's making the vibes turn sour and I've already burned a bunch of incense.
On a positive end note, after finishing a spell with her observation and placing it in my pillow case (It's not a jar don't worry I can go inot details if anyone wants) my cat immediately went on it. Feels like this is a good one but now I am sleepy from using up a lot of energy. Does that happen to anyone else after spell work? Not as bad as when I used blue moon water (I was exhausted for like a week), but still pretty sleepy. Alright thanks guys.









