why do we all have Illness Anxiety

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why do we all have Illness Anxiety
i hate the way people say you should "sit in your discomfort" as an advice for self improvement so fucking much. like, what people mean when they say that is that you should find ways to accept and contain things that intuitively read as dissonant or contradictory to things you feel should be true in a dialectic way and expand your range of acceptable reality to improve your ability to manage things, but what i hear is always "you should just let your distress levels rise and tell yourself to be okay with it because you deserve it".
In Improvisation Class they told us to show with different viewpoints important points of our lives since the day we were born till this day.
And this is what happened to us in the process and the final result:
Wow...
It was like 2 hour session of therapy.
As much as I'd like to ridicule the idea of "The Father, The Son, and The Holy Spirit" being "one and the same God", I actually understand it.
I too am three in one:
One I call my Brain, that is where the information goes and is stored, and where patterns are recognised and problems are logically figured out.
Then there are the Feelings, which is a part of me that reacts to events very emotionally and intuitively. They also sometimes react to Brain's ideas, and while they acknowledge their logic, they sometimes disagree based on their own, intuitive opinions.
Then, the third and most important part, which I also understand to be the true "me", the actual "core" of my being is either referred to as Ego, Being, or simply Me. Its function is to evaluate opinions of both the Brain and the Feelings. It can communicate with both of them, but it is mutually understood that Ego has the most power out of them three. It is the only one that has the power to make decisions about what will be the action of the Body.
I'm trying to accept to not always be where my colleagues are. Let me explain. We have a big event twice a year, and the second one this year was today. At the end of the day, there's a time to eat together after everything's ended. Usually, I stay. And stay. And stay until very late. Too late, frankly. And this time. I said no. I said I didn't want to eat with them. I have the right to say no, I know that. (Plus it doesn't count as work hours technically.) But still. I have that stupid guilty knot in my stomach because I know some people would like for me to be there. Actually, some of our volunteers asked me several times if I was sure I didn't wanna stay... but I said no still. Doesn't stop the stupid guilt looming near tho.
It’s not okay to say something that can be understood as a mean remark and when confronted answer with “just because you understood it like that it doesn’t mean it was meant that way”. At least apologize and make your statement clearer afterwards
Developmental Psychology
Building Blocks
Name: Rishyet Sang
Age and Birthday: verse dependent, main verse 17-22-ish
Ethnicity(s): space alien
Hometown(s): Galactic City, Coruscant
Religion: Jedi-agnostic
Class: low martial
Sex and Gender(s): cis female
Basic Personality Classifying (from newest to oldest)
Moral Alignment: lawful/neutral good
Myers Briggs Personality Type: ISFJ
IQ: 153
Temperamental Humor: melancholy/phlegmatic
Zodiac Sign: Virgo
Classification According to Esteemed Psychologists
Erikson
Trust or Mistrust
Autonomy or Shame and Doubt
Initiative or Guilt
Industry or Inferiority
Identity or Role Confusion
Intimacy or Isolation
Generativity or Stagnation
Integrity or Despair
Maslow
At which stage of the Hierarchy of Needs are you currently?:
Physical ~ Safety ~ Love ~ Esteem ~ Cognitive ~ Aesthetic ~ Self-Actualized ~ Transcended
Freud
Oral Receptive or Oral Aggressive
Anal Expulsive or Anal Retentive
Phallic Compensative or Phallic Aggressive
Classic Hysteric or Retentive Hysteric
Fixation: Oral ~ Anal ~ Phallic ~ Genital ~ Latent
Miscellaneous
Right Brained or Left Brained
Right Handed or Left Handed
Black and White or Gray
Optimist or Pessimist
Introvert or Extrovert
Better to be Feared or Better to be Loved
Looking Out for Others or Looking Out for Yourself
Trauma?: PTSD, depersonalization disorder, depression
Obsessions?: The past, things that once were. “Born in the wrong millennium.”
Addictions?: no chemical addictions, surprisingly
Parental Issues?: Parents were exiled due to her existence, fears turning out like them, particularly avoids any perceived similarity with her mother
Trust Issues?: Surprisingly very few.
Goals?: To improve as many lives as possible before her inevitable early death.
Fears?: Burdensome dependency, failure, rejection, hatred, causing pain, a meaningless death
Anything Left to Declare?: whatever it was, she pleads the Fifth.
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I have therapy today, which is fine, but last time we talked about the DID stuff and talked more about possibly going to another facility to get evaluated and diagnosed (not just for DID but also depression and anxiety, and possibly other things). She wrote down a place not too far away that she’s called previously and they do diagnosing and treatment for all the things.
Getting a proper diagnosis has always been a back and forth type of thing in our system. On the one hand, yeah we want to be diagnosed so that we can tell people that we have proof that we have what we have. We shouldn’t need a psychologist to be that evidence, especially when you can clearly see it - but whatever. Even the parents don’t want to admit we have anything “wrong” with us until it’s officially diagnosed. It’s frustrating.
On the other hand, we’ve always been terrified of the diagnosis because of it being on our medical records. I know that type of information is confidential but I dunno. Something about it being there has always rubbed Aaron the wrong way.
I know that going to a place that can properly treat our specific needs would be more of a benefit than negative thing.
If we decided to do this though, I don’t wanna go to that place alone - and I definitely don’t want the parents going with us.