The Acing On The Cake

Potentially hibernating Do not refer to me.

[rysearkas]

Some CoD fan art I did for this years inktober.

I’m not sure anymore who I like most. I started to like them because they like each other? If Ghost loves Soap and I like Ghost then I also have to love Soap. That’s my brain for ya

[rysearkas]

Looking back, Orpheus really wasn’t the best husband

[rysearkas]

As a golden retriever friend I have yet to meet another.

It’s exhausting having many aloof or black cat friends. I know they love me in their way but there is a misconception about the golden retrievers:

We aren’t all extroverted and full of energy. I‘m an introvert most of the time and with depression and social anxiety piled on top it‘s hard to see me as naturally bright and energetic. But that doesn’t stop me from complimenting my friends (or even strangers on a good day)! It’s not even something that comes to me easily.

But that doesn’t stop me from wanting to be a positive influence on lives. It lifts my own spirits to see my friends full of confidence, knowing that they’re rocking their stupid appointments today. It puts a smile on my face when a stranger feels seen and appreciated when I tell them I love their outfit.

Nowadays it feels like the golden retrievers are looked down on. We might not be everyone’s cup of tea and we don’t have to be the closest of friends with everyone. Because we like to look on the sunny side of life people feel like they have to bring us back down to the cold hard reality. Truth of the matter is we often times know exactly why others choose to become more closed off or black cat friends. Sometimes our sunshine is the result of teeth gritted optimism.

It‘s disheartening when the only time we get similar positive energy back is when we‘re either really down or when it‘s kind of a joke on our expense. When I pull my energy on a hard day or one that I have to spend by myself from a „I hate you less than the other people“ text that was sent two years ago.

On some days it‘s a struggle to stay true to that inner sunshine and it would be easier to become more distant. Afraid of looking foolish or like you care too much about others.

But we‘re human. If YOU don‘t care for your friends, your chosen circle of people, who should? If they‘re there for you, try to cheer you up on your hard days and in the mundane moments as well, why can‘t you at least once in a while be more open and giving? You don‘t have to hide behind a mask or do things that genuinely make you uncomfortable but the golden retrievers don‘t always have an easier time joking around in public or complimenting you like a desperate ex.

We do it because we genuinely love you and would like you to see yourself that way, too.

If we never get the feeling that that’s okay nowadays and that we always end up the butt of the joke, the second choice, the „nice to have but not my closest“ friend — we will also close ourselves off.

So please check in on your golden retriever friends. Getting some of that energy reciprocated can help more than you can ever imagine.

That being said enjoy your day or night. Eat something nutritious and drink enough water. Leave the house and feel the weather out there if you‘re able. Collect your steps. Say something nice — to your friends, neighbors, strangers but definitely to yourself.

There are people out there that will gladly help you love yourself the way you deserve. But don‘t forget that those, maybe especially those, know how it feels not loving yourself, to have others ruin your fun and energy. So check in on them. Not just today but all the time.

[rysearkas]

Asuma Sarutobi

originally i wanted to write some fanfiction but i ended up with this rough Asuma sketch. Well, could be worse

[nichet-crochet]

[luxiomahariel]

[brubris-moonlight]

meme come from hatred vs actually healthy meme

[hxneyfarm]

Happy pride month specifically to folks on the asexual and aromantic spectrum who oftentimes feel isolated and left out of the conversation. You belong here as much as the rest of us and I hope that you are all loved in a way that is comforting to you.

[itswellya]

yessss

also agender people

not talked about enough

see you and love you <33

[rysearkas]

Does it count as fan fiction if you write about your life but you swap out friends for fictional characters?

Does it count as fan fiction if you hate yourself?

[rysearkas]

Maybe someone out there needs to hear this:

The first real heartbreak doesn’t have to come with your first relationship ending. It could be a friendship that’s just ran its course, a family member leaving your life, a situationship that never officially crossed the boarder to dating or it could be the fifth relationship you’ve had.

Feelings are complicated. Sometimes we give people pieces of us in hopes that they will return them or give us a piece of them. But some people leave you like that, feeling incomplete and broken. You might never get that bit of yourself back but you can fill that hole with new experiences. Make more friends, try new things, eat foreign food and visit places you could only dream of. And if that doesn’t work then let others help you. Let them fill the cracks and gaps with their love. Their warmth will keep you going and you can rebuild your home again. It might look different but over time you can add more of your personality. Things you maybe wouldn’t have discovered that will give you fulfillment and joy for years to come wait behind that white page you’re too scared to write on.

[rysearkas]

Published my first fan fiction today.

Now, where is that motivation to write literally anything else ever in my life?

[rysearkas]

How hard is it to begin writing fan fiction?

Definitely asking for a friend here who coincidentally has as much experience writing stuff that’s supposed to make you feel better as me. Zero

[rysearkas]

My love life is a romantic comedy turned into me being a clown. And the second season is the first just reheated

[rysearkas]

Such a weird feeling of recognizing that the world is a big amazing place, where unimaginable experiences wait for you; but at the same time feeling so lonely and like you’re not worth it to explore it. Or not even worthlessness but like one soul alone can’t fit all those moments of a life and its path

[rysearkas]

We need more rap and dance battles to settle disputes.

Just imagine fighting over custody in court…

[rysearkas]

I’m only learning US states to make stupid jokes with them, OK?

[rysearkas]

I’m scared to put my best ship jokes on the enternet - they just get pirated

[rysearkas]

Imagine living in the dark ages: you get framed for stealing, you send a pigeon to your friend for help and they just leave you hanging

[rysearkas]

My algorithm is trying to warn me it seems like. For over a year i get stuff like “have you finalized your will?”. Then it’s about how sad pets get when their owners die. Recently there have also been “want to get your ashes scattered in a special place?” ads and this week I’ve straight up seen one for caskets

I’m twenty one.