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i hate my latuda on virtue of it taking my psychosis away from me. i feel much better and more stable moodwise but its taken me being a dog as a physical fact and aspect of my body and turned it into an identity instead. i am still a dog but im in a human body. its so upsetting because i LIKE having a dog body. i miss it so much. but i cant live with the mood disorder shit anymore and this is the only thing thats ever worked this well for it. i miss being a dog.
new antipsychotic is taking away some of my dogself. its really sucks, thats the reason i stopped the last one. but its helping with the mood aspects, which i really need. so as long as the med keeps working for me how i need, im thinking of going copinglink style in addition to what i have left of my delusionself. dog copinglink endel. because being a dog has become incredibly important to me and brought a sense of comfort.
year 3 of being a dog. my psych finally brought up a schizospec diagnosis to me.
dont like how being on antipsychotic makes me feel, dont like how being off antipsychotic makes me feel. the fuck am i supposed to do with that
continuously going back and forth between feeling schizophrenic and not feeling schizophrenic enough. either i feel insane and discomnected from every the world and everyone around me or i dont feel disconnected enough to warrant the diagnosis. but i know my view is skewed because i live like this all the time so of course feels normal. my baseline is someone else's distressing psychotic episode, a statement that feels so foreign to try and understand.
im really here thinking "i havent been particularly psychotic lately" dog just this week you talked to death out loud while laying in the grass. he was sitting beside you and you talked to him. the fuck do you mean
yayyyyy ^_^ lower dose of my antipsychotic
i dont know why im so adamant that id do fine off my antipsychotic when evidence consistently points to the contrary. every time i have a psychotic episode im so thankful for my seroquel ending it sooner and making it more manageable, if i miss more than two doses in a row i go to the suffering dimension. but every time im normal and fine for an extended period of time i want to go off of it to experience being without it. why does this keep happening
