I meant to post way more but I've been staying busy. My mind has been hyper focused on different aspects of being trans over the last week or two. It was almost a month ago but I am still taking everything I learned at PTHC and turning it over in my mind and analyzing it and trying to decide what to make of it all. I've found that since coming out as trans and beginning to live as Max I've been way more comfortable networking and organizing with other local activists to create positive change in my city and surrounding areas. It's what I am truly passionate about. I took some of the things I learned in various workshops and helped apply them to our most recent PFLAG meeting and everything seemed to have gone over well. I learned a lot about making safe spaces safe for everyone. Even down to small details that never crossed my mind before but make perfect sense. I also picked up becoming an activist for myself in some ways. Through discussion with others at the conference I came to realize that I started some organizations and become more involved in others partially to take my focus off of my own transition, because I knew it was not going to be easy. By starting a non-profit for others in transition I think I subconsciously wanted to take my focus off myself in a way to make it easier for me. I have no hard feelings about doing that, I just find it interesting. But now that I have recognized that, I'm beginning to take steps to put as much effort into caring for me as much as I do those non-profits. This week I am beginning to make some changes to my diet to experiment and see how it works for me. I am starting to get back into going to the gym. I still lack motivation to do so (especially after work) so I've started going for 20-30 minutes at a time. It's quick, easy, but I still feel good to have taken the time for myself to do it. I have a goal to have top surgery toward the beginning of the year next year, if I can lose enough weight to make it a safe procedure. I also have to double check my insurance and figure out costs. Eventually I'd like to make posts about specific things I sort of turn over in my brain thinking about and share my thoughts, but I am still getting there.
