Max

Maxwell Ethan. 23. Tennessee. Poly. Trans. Queer.

[nonbinarysapphic]

feminine and woman aren’t synonyms

[maxaronincheese]

me: oh yea it's been years I'm over it

also me: *was actually irreparably changed to the point that my personality and the way I interact with others and my insecurities are, even today, a direct result of what happened*

[maxaronincheese]

Float On: Hey sometimes shit happens but life goes on yaay :D

Dashboard: Things may suck right now but at least not everything sucks :D

Lampshades On Fire: We're all gonna fucking die and there's nothing the human race can do about it

[dreamypoprocks]

Visit Original Link

Modest Mouse - Lampshades on Fire

[tastefullyoffensive]

(via planetmarklar)

[vengeancect]

[borderlands-disorder]

I would be terrified

[uncle-whisky-deactivated2018081]

Can we confirm the safety and survival of the person who took this video?

[vengeancect]

no they’re dead

[asillyandrandomname]

Ok I cried

[liketwopeasinapod2-deactivated2]

This is gonna give me nightmares :(

[versacebeefcurtains]

B I T C H

[habibi243]

WHAT IS GOING ON???

[boochiebadass]

@bigyerchy

[p-nutonyourface]

[shaelab-deactivated20160923]

But like why though

[maxaronincheese]

Hope for Better Days

I went through a really emotional period there for a few weeks, and experienced some very low moments. Eventually I went a who,e day feeling more stable, with my mood more leveled out. When I noticed that, I embraced the idea that I could have a good day, and it gave me hope. That hope has been powering me through every day since then.

[maxaronincheese]

[ftmatty]

Pre T transguys

Foods that lower estrogen: •broccoli •cauliflower •cabbage •Brussels sprouts •kale •collard greens •turnips •red grapes •mushrooms •seeds •whole grains •green tea

Foods that boost testosterone: •Oysters •Broccoli •Garlic •Bananas •Brazil nuts •Eggs

[maxaronincheese]

I've been struggling a lot lately with the thoughts of, "If I wasn't trans, this wouldn't be an issue." Nothing makes me feel worse. And I know it is difficult on the people around me. I just keep thinking of this song lyric that's always stuck with me. We wish our lives were different, but then they wouldn't be our lives. I'm trying to take things day by day and embrace who I am instead of imagining the possibilities of being someone else. It makes me... begin to feel hope.

[maxaronincheese]

My partners deserve way fucking better than I think I could ever do for them. Between my dysphoria, hormone-induced aggression/rage, and the occasional inability to shake nightmares from my past, I'm just not the man they need. I need to get my shit together.

[maxaronincheese]

Took this after my shower last night. I like the way my face and (tiny bit off chest hair look in it.

[gaylor-moon]

Normalize using ‘they’ and ‘them’ pronouns. Practice doing it, especially when you’re unsure of someone’s gender. It avoids cissexism and adhering to an arbitrary binary. Seriously!!! If someone says they are more comfortable with these pronouns for themself, use them!!!! Don’t be an ass!!! This isn’t an opportunity to flex your grammatical muscle, that you only really seem to care about when it comes to not using the correct pronouns for transgender people

[maxaronincheese]

I meant to post way more but I've been staying busy. My mind has been hyper focused on different aspects of being trans over the last week or two. It was almost a month ago but I am still taking everything I learned at PTHC and turning it over in my mind and analyzing it and trying to decide what to make of it all. I've found that since coming out as trans and beginning to live as Max I've been way more comfortable networking and organizing with other local activists to create positive change in my city and surrounding areas. It's what I am truly passionate about. I took some of the things I learned in various workshops and helped apply them to our most recent PFLAG meeting and everything seemed to have gone over well. I learned a lot about making safe spaces safe for everyone. Even down to small details that never crossed my mind before but make perfect sense. I also picked up becoming an activist for myself in some ways. Through discussion with others at the conference I came to realize that I started some organizations and become more involved in others partially to take my focus off of my own transition, because I knew it was not going to be easy. By starting a non-profit for others in transition I think I subconsciously wanted to take my focus off myself in a way to make it easier for me. I have no hard feelings about doing that, I just find it interesting. But now that I have recognized that, I'm beginning to take steps to put as much effort into caring for me as much as I do those non-profits. This week I am beginning to make some changes to my diet to experiment and see how it works for me. I am starting to get back into going to the gym. I still lack motivation to do so (especially after work) so I've started going for 20-30 minutes at a time. It's quick, easy, but I still feel good to have taken the time for myself to do it. I have a goal to have top surgery toward the beginning of the year next year, if I can lose enough weight to make it a safe procedure. I also have to double check my insurance and figure out costs. Eventually I'd like to make posts about specific things I sort of turn over in my brain thinking about and share my thoughts, but I am still getting there.

[maxaronincheese]

PTHC 16'

I went to my first Philadelphia Trans Health Conference last weekend and I left feeling inspired. I went into it feeling very dysphoric in multiple areas of my life and came out of it feeling like if I own who I am, if I own my transgender life, maybe I can battle that dysphoria. One of the ways of owning my journey is sharing it, so I am going to try to post here more. 👍🏼

[moderntimesbookstore]

Trans* Ally Workbook, an excellent, concise resource now available at Modern Times! (at Modern Times Bookstore Collective)

[diqg]

Not in San Francisco? Buy the book in digital ($4) or print form ($8) online!:

http://thinkagaintraining.com/resources/publications/trans-ally-workbook/

Inclusive of non-binary identities and easy to understand. I approve!

~Marilyn

[tastefullyoffensive]

“Waiter… there’s a hare in my pancakes.” (via thund3rbolt)