#ptw ed

[breakfastattheglitterfactory]

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Trying not to cry (and feeling ridiculous for my emotional status right now) because I just cannot see myself going through the “weight restoration” process yet again

[breakfastattheglitterfactory]

struggle is real

I have been in program for three weeks and my weight has gone up since then... I feel like I am gaining on less than I normally do and I’m feeling anger toward my body because where the f is the hypermetabolic phase? Why is this weight that I just hit such a fear or carry so much meaning? Especially when in theory (idk... I just cannot see it happening rn, I am so paralyzed with doing what I need to do to move forward), I go past it and end up wishing I was back there when in the moment I was so upset about it. ED LOGIC IS SO EFFED man

[pessimisticfvck]

hey I have to ask

i am sorry if it is a triggering question

i feel fat and i feel bad I feel disgusting

when I eat

yet I don't feel hunger unless I work hard or go 2 days without eating or drinking

i don't understand why I feel like this

is this a eating disorder or just all in my head ?

these are signs that you might struggle with an eating disorder, i’m so sorry you feel this way, i know what it’s like🥺 id definitely recommend to go see a professional before things spiral out of control, i know seeing professionals can be scary but it’s the best thing to do, it’s not easy dealing with it alone and i’m sure you understand that as well

i’m sending you lots of hugs and i hope you’ll chose the way to recovery