Having the familiarity of having you around simply be taken away from me, is something I'm unable to cope with and will take time to accept.
Thinking back through all the memories, all I can ever think of is wanting you back in my arms. All I can ever think of is not being around to save you when you were unable to hold yourself together. You're a strong individual.. But everyone needs a shoulder to lean on, a hug filled with care, and a hand to hold-- Everyone needs someone there to always be sure of and I'm sorry I couldn't be that person. I'm sorry I was unable to see through your smiles and was selfish enough to hardly ever ask how you were. You have been nothing but a good friend to me. Always listening and always cheering me up. Despite our rare meetings, there was never a dull moment with you.
It all happened too fast. I'm still having troubles accepting you're gone. I didn't want to believe it. But at the same time, your aura of absence is proof enough for my chest to tighten and for my throat to close. It hasn't been a day yet I'm already missing you so.
“Never say goodbye because goodbye means going away and going away means forgetting.”― J.M. Barrie, Peter Pan
Thank you for last night. Thank you for bringing color into my painful little life. Thank you for everything you've done. So, let's not say goodbye, but rather..