ITell u what atleast this wasn't last April . SOMETIMES WONDER how I specifically put myself disastrously down (almost subconciously) to bring forward "anything is better than that" which is , there is an abandon but hmmmm lmao and what? Til I forget what I marred april w/ ? I need to let that bake x
I'd never been catatonic before. I was talking in a different accent when I finally started talking bc I was talking so slow the joke was I sounded yorkshire. I didn't try + kms or make attempts last yr but what I did was hit insane lows. And this Yr just looks like that again I seem to be able to whip the devil into shape , better. But I don't wanna enthuse good into these new healthy choices. I still have that blocked up. But, if I'm right, the reactions that have happened was my life finally catching up w me n now it's forward. Bc unless like someone close to me died or summat I have no extreme reactions in me left. It was like, bubbling under the surface. Looking back