A year went by that I neglected you.
I turned a blind eye thinking it was for the best. I hid behind the writings in my notes, reading between the lines, avoiding the only person who has ever been honest with me.
But nothing quite felt the same when i wasn't writing directly to you, for you, for us.
Pushing and supporting. Still seeing a version of me that I no longer believed.
Today I reminded myself. Decided to finally write this overdue letter. Then I realized I've been here before. We've been here before. I scrolled through the pages, through the memories, through the years looking for the original. The toxic ups and downs I put us through.
Reminding myself that you are and have always been my greatest love. The years have gone by and once again, lovers have come and gone.The pain I have endured and the flames I have ignited, so I can only be discarded.
When all along you have been patiently waiting.
You have always remained consistently through the ups and downs. Through the manic episodes of E U P H O R I A, through the spiraling benders, through the moments I simply wanted to walk away from it all.
My eternal promise remains the same, when time has gone by and I forget myself .
Once all is set and done, when years have gone, I can always count on our love to carry me on. So here’s to the years ahead, when our skin is ready to shed, learning from our regrets, lying on our death bed. I reassure you that this love will never cease to exist .
Your greatest love…inner-self.
