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Being a disrespectful asshole lm AO. I can't think of anything specific. I've never really noticed trends of when I'm "turned on" and tbh I'm at such a strange place with my sexual orientation right now that I'm like? what even.
31:Talk about what you think death is like.
[TW: DEATH]
Ooh, I've never really thought about it tbh. I imagine it would be probably very contradictory in certain people. Maybe some people would experience a deafening quiet, stuck with nothing but their own thoughts as they drifted away, and some people it would be very chaotic with everything, every sense coming in to sharp focus and a lot of panicking before a quick shutoff. I would imagine though that right before the end, you don't feel a lot of pain.
32:Talk about a place you remember from your childhood.
Earl Rowe. It's a provincial park in Ontario. It's a small lake with a larger river system running loops around it, it's hard to describe. I haven't been there since I was.... Probably since I was 8 or 9? It was about 45 minutes away from my house, in a really quiet area, and once you saw the sign it was a long forested drive, super quiet, until you got to the park. There was never really anyone there. We would unload the kayaks and our cooler and would tow them down a small grassy hill to the edge of the lake. Set up our stuff under a tree, and I would already be in my shorts and lifejacket, setting up the paddles pretty well before the kayaks were even down at the edge of the water. There was a sort of island straight out, probably less than a kilometre on the water. It had a bunch of tall trees and my dad and I paddled out there one day to see if we could go on, but less than a metre away from the island I reached my paddle straight down and it didnt even touch the ground. We always went on the rivers there, in our two MASSIVE tandem ocean kayaks. Ah, I'd love to go back.
33:Talk about what you do when you are sad.
When I get sad I usually go all the way lmaoooo. It's days of moping about and not talking to anyone and just wasting time blankly staring at tumblr and doing nothing. Like that's it it's really pathetic.
34:Talk about the worst physical pain you've endured.
I've been lucky in that I haven't really experienced much excruciating physical pain? Nothing where I'm like "okay THAT ONE is the WORST PAIN". I fractured my thumb in 7th grade, which was pretty painful, but probably about two weeks ago I stood up and got excruciating abdominal pain which I nearly blacked out from. I would have to say that the worst was probably my knees last year, because it was not only really painful and uncomfortable doing anything involving my knees/legs/lower body (i.e. everything) but because it was also such an enduring pain. It was like 7 straight months of fuckery, and my knees still aren't the same.
35:Talk about things you wish you could stop doing.
Procrastinating. I wish I could stop being an introvert, I wish I wasn't so good at shoving my friends away and alienating myself from them, I wish I wasn't so selfish. I wish I could stop leaving messes for other people and I wish I could stop trying to remove blame from myself whether consciously or on a subconscious level.