Oh my god Tahllula😭😭😭 This poor egg has had a day to say the least. To start she had to deal with her father shouting/threatening her and her brother. He then revealed he’s struggling to fight off possession by an unknown higher entity he has made an enemy of. Said father then left to go heal himself in the name of another higher entity she has no knowledge of (he practically abandoned them, even if it was for a good reason). Later in the day, she then goes to her most trusted tio for help with something (I’m assuming confiding in q!bad about her father or at least getting some vague advice or emotional support) only to find that he has absolutely zero recollection of her and that he died in the time since she’s last seen him. She then insists that she’s fine and asks the now familiar stranger to write a letter for her father’s birthday (q!bad has no clue who that is either). She attempts to get q!bad to recognize her with no success and asks if his death was painful. The echo of her beloved tio replies helpfully with “i don’t remember but some deaths are agonizing while others are peaceful” failing to comfort his now unrecognizable niece. She stops calling the demon in front of her “tio” switching to something more formal with “Mr.” She states she hopes he remembers her and while he may not remember her at the moment, he’s very important to her. She says to the now unfamiliar face that he’s always welcome at her home and he insists the same. She quickly flees soon after.
My poor Tahllula😭😭😭😭 She doesn’t deserve to go through this. She definitely didn’t deserve to get lored on by bad on the same day she got lored on by Phil.
Isn’t it awful that the most powerful people on the island are reduced to the most unstable and a threat to their children. Bad has lost all his memory, Phil is/was a few steps away from being possessed by his long time enemy, The Enderking, Tubbo has come back from death incredibly unstable and is lashing out against those who hurt him, Cellbit has just given up, too exhausted to continue fighting after the insanity that was Purgatory, and Étoiles lost his most prized possession, his code sword and shield during the transfer to the new island. Everyone is ten steps away from loosing it and all their children can do is watch it all come crashing down. (I’m sure I missed some people’s lore or not represented it to the fullest. I was more thinking about the original islands powerhouses)
something i'll never be able to get over with the bbh and dapper relationship is what dapper wrote in the laboratory journal:
"But if I am a sun for him, aren't stars suppose to burn either way?"
because only dapper could take bbh's incredibly sincere and loving phrase of endearment and see the negative connotations of it, not out of distrust or resentment but rather pure logical reason. that yeah the sun is a star and stars do burn and don't truly last forever (don't get me started on the fact that bbh is canonically immortal so there's another level of angst regarding dapper fearing not living as long as his dad). that this phrase capsulate the initial feelings that all the parents had towards the eggs. because at first all the parents really did see the eggs as a means to a end, that they were the latest task / challenge presented by the island. and its not like they weren't vocal about that fact to the eggs, they explicitly asked the eggs and bragged to them about raising them the best and talking about the "prize" for raising them.
i feel like dappers the only egg that's really touched on the fact that the eggs weren't really suppose to last. that he isn't afraid of death but rather his fathers reaction to it, because it was the parents attachment to the eggs that has kept them around. dapper has always been very transparent with his mortality and potential death but i feel like this quote is the first time his character has actually touched on dapper's feeling about dying. i think another level of this quote is also the connotations of "burn" because its really makes me think of the parents interest in the eggs "burning" away (burnout) because of all the parents bbh has been the one to log on everyday and care for both him and the other eggs. and its questioning when is his father investment in him going to burn away too, because its the parents attachment that kept them around but how long can the parents remain attached.
i dont know. i absolutely adore this quote. its just got some many levels and connotations and its adds so much depth to dapper's character. i love the server lore and etc but i wish we got more from the dapper secret labortory arc because it was such a interesting arc for dapper character. anyway this quote is my roman empire.
if you've got any other interpretations of the quote i'd love to hear them.