i love being weird
i love being a dyke, i love the kind of gender-fuckery where nobody really know's what i've got going on
i love being the kind of dyke where people are unsure "which way" i'm "transing" from and to
i love the journey, the destination is uncertainty
i love being so weird that everybody else feels way more comfortable being themselves as well and that's not just about my gender
i love being a weird freak with weird and freaky interests, i love the unapologetic "this is what i like and this is what i do for fun"
i love the "you're cringe" -- "I'm 30 lmao" i spent too long uncomfortable inside my skin, uncomfortable inside my mind, uncomfortable inside this world and now i've made it mine
which of them? all of them. it's my mind, it's my body, it's my world too, we share it all together. and i will do with mine here little part whatever i might like
you might not like the tattoos that i've got you might consider all my interests to be the dorky kind and that's okay and when i talk i'm sure that plenty think that i'm obnoxious the way i speak, the ever over-grandiose, the almost Shakespearesque, that damn autistic kid who never fucking learned how to be normal just for once
and that's the thing: i tried when i was just a kid, when i was just 16 i would have killed myself just to be normal and i swear that i did try
but i survived and what i learned is this: there's always going to be someone who doesn't like you there's always someone who hates what you do and what you say and how you dress and what you like
there's always going to be someone who hates you just for being who you are; when you're not hurting anybody
and i've decided i will be the person that i want to be with all my weirdness and the strangest is that i'm still learning how to pull it off because i get so anxious still
but as it is i hope that i'm so weird that everyone feels more like they can be themselves without any apologies