#queerspeaks

[just-aqueer]

I’m so much happier now, with her, than I ever was with you. You never really cared for me in the way I cared for you, but she loves me just as much as I love her. I don’t think you ever really understood how I felt for you back then. I don’t know if you’ll ever understand, or if you’ll ever be able to grasp that there were parts of the way that we interacted that you will never see again. Things I said and did because I thought what we had was real and permanent, that now that I have moved on and have her, we will never have again.

I don’t know how to tell you that I don’t think you should come to my wedding

[just-aqueer]

So I originally made this blog to poetically vent about my problems that I didn't want my IRL friends who follow me on my main to know about. But I'm not feeling particularly poetic about this situation, so I'm just gonna dump here.

2019 is the year of me being Pissed As Shit at You. You keeps pulling the rudest shit???? Fucking ghosting us when you feel we've slighted you??? Like, I get being mad. I truly do. The first time you did this, it was us who screwed up. But hey, when you're an adult, you're supposed to use your words! Not throw a fucking hissy fit and remove yourself from every chat you exist in! And then have your 'best friend' play messenger for you!

And what makes that worse is the way you just treated that best friend. She was joking! The rest of us (and you too!) have all literally done exactly the same thing! And then you go and treat her like absolute shit when she apologizes? You ignore it when I try to reach out and figure out what the fuck went wrong? You do the one thing you and her promised you'd never do- blast your personal beef all over Facebook and Instagram and Twitter? That's fucked up. And I don't think I'll ever forgive you for this shit. You've gone too fucking far.

[just-aqueer]

Me: *makes a blog where I can post my issues with my gender*

Me: *continues to be angsty about gender on main*

[just-aqueer]

A Dumping

A little while ago, I was dumped by my partner of nearly a year and a half... Over text. I was on an outing with a friend, and my partner texted me, and broke my heart. We were in a long distance relationship, as she left for college and I stayed home to attend the college here. What hurt more than her ending a relationship that I had labelled as forever in my mind, was that she had done it over text when the week before she had been in town and I had seen her almost everyday. It feels like she was lying to me that entire times.

[just-aqueer]

An Outing

Today, my very good friend got outed to their mother by a teacher that they trusted with their identity. They told the teacher several times not to tell their mother, they told their teacher that the did not want to be out to the world until they were away in college, and this teacher... Told their mom anyway. And I’m mad as hell at this teacher, but there is nothing I can do against this teacher or for my friend and I just feel massively helpless.

[just-aqueer]

Life is just.. Hard as hell sometimes. Shit happens to your friends, and there is nothing that you can do.