Oh! Okay! Well, my question was basically about whether there was a term for how I feel. Basically I feel like a binary trans guy ... Kind of? I feel like once I transition and deal with dysphoria and such, and get down to the core of it without wanting to change my body I would be agender? So, I feel like the best way to describe my gender is a trans guy who after transitioning will probably identify as agender. Is there a word for this? Sorry if this doesn't make much sense.
Hmmm, I don’t think I remember anything about this specifically.
I can suggest identifying as an agender boy, nonbinary boy, libramasculine, bxy and so on
I can also suggest labels such as:
Cocoongender: “A gender that has not come out yet, a gender that has yet to emerge in its full form.”
Chelogender: “From the scientific word for turtle (chelonii). A gender that is protected by another gender that acts as its shell. the shell could possibly come up in social situations or situations where one is uncomfortable.”
Pregender: “A feeling that one’s gender is growing into, but not quite yet at, a particular gender. A preboy, for example, may feel that their gender is transitioning towards, but has not yet reached, male.”
Causticgender: “An acidic gender that gradually dissolves other genders until it is the only gender, or only fully intact gender remaining.”
Vectorgender: “When your gender is in the direction of something, but not actually that something, ie. a vectorgirl would be someone with a gender pointed in or traveling in the direction of girlness, but who is not actually a girl.”
Vestigender: “A gender that blankets another, stronger, gender. It’s the only visible gender, but underneath there is much more of the blanketed gender than there is of the blanket gender.”
Quizgender: "Where many different genders sound like they could fit you, but it's difficult to make up your mind; in relation to when you're taking a quiz, and you think one of the answers is correct, but then another one also looks correct, and you just have trouble deciding.”
I really don’t know, though. Choose whatever makes you comfortable. There is also no problem in just identifying as a boy for now and change your label to agender only when you are sure it will be the case, or in identifying as agender because you feel like that’s what you truly are. Remember you can be agender, transmasculine, want to be read as male and/or want a body that’s seen as male, all at the same time.
Maybe this thread (cw: mild cissexism and exorsexism) could also help?
~ Tath