#raggedymanwithaplan

[megalyniam]

I'm really surprised that since I deleted my other blogs no one has taken the chance to steal 'raggedymanwithaplan'

[ravenharkness]

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“I think we should get a kitten.”

raggedymanwithaplan

[megalyniam]

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[thenotsosilentmonk]

As a wise detective one said to their partner and friend.

[thenotsosilentmonk]

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[thenotsosilentmonk]

1 Year Birthday

Next month will be my one year on making this blog. I made this as mu very first Doctor Who blog, it was on the library computer one day. First people I started talking to was headmisstressriversong, him-in-the-bowtie, riversonghellowsweetie, later talk-to-tennat, but most of all raggedymanwithaplan, it was that person who got me into Doctor Who fandom. Later others came into the picture, but mainly these and Myst were the main ones. 

It was an amazing start, I earned About 250 by the time it was my birthday, 50 on my first day, October 4, my first day rping. I want to thank you all, and helping me through highs and lows, all of you, the ones that stayed this long since you followed me, for being my followers and helping me achieve a lot of my goals. My last goal will be 2000 followers and by than I...I don't know. I am hoping to get that my 1st anniversary in this fandom. And I made about 20 DW blogs, almost, at least 15. 

To be honest the first time I met Clever i was looking at pictures and such on tumblr and google. I never watch much Doctor Who, much less Nightmare in Silver, but when I saw him, I, well, couldn't resist. I read into him a bit, but mostly played him in my own style really. So when I herd, when it was my Birthday, that was, that and year before were my best birthdays ever. You welcome me, I never got hate, just love and acceptance. You guys told me how great and amazing i was rping him, I had no idea how to rp the sucker, I finally watch the episode two months later pretty much. But now...now I am ooh for myself. So sorry for letting you down. 

I earned more ooh friends here than any fandom. you guys help open me a bit.  Thank you. I know we all went through a lot of hard times, you remember, Thanksgiving time was one of those, but I tried, to be there for all of you as much as possible, and you did the same, Myst Mun was one of these. Thank you. Again, lately i feel I have failed you, you, all of you, when you were down, I just not as good as I use to be, I am sorry, I wish I was my old self. 

In fact I made this blog to be no smut...and thought no one wanted to ship him, so less smut for me...oh how wrong I was in that. 

What I wanted to say is this...Over the years I gain and lost friends, either deleted or worse, same the past year...There are so many rpers I lost touch with and want to talk with again or more. Because some of my best friends, and the people who were there for me...I feel I failed you and that why we are not talking. I use to be a lot of people's senpai, not anymore, but that's cool, I rather we were friends. Some of us use to talk a lot...not any more, in fact...mom knows a bit about a few of you, and, in a way, I think she wants to thank you for accepting me of what I gave you about me.

And now...I need to tell you something...about the first anniversary...I am thinking of leaving...I saw the change in me, in some ways, mostly nice, but mainly, no...I am afraid...mainly because I didn't tell you who I really am, fully am...I am afraid I will loose my friends, and I really like you...I am afraid, if I tell you, you call me a huge hypocrite, or worse...that's fine. I won't tell you the whole story...I'm sorry...I...I know by the second year if i stay I will loose you all probably...I don't want to...I rather leave before I...I am scared of the truth...I am scared of the cycle I tend to find my life in...I don't know how long I can keep living...if I am....

Thank you all...this was suppose to be a happy post..but...I don't want to leave...but I know the truth about me...and I like that truth...but...because of other truths you know about my past, they don't mix well...I am a broken, hypocrite of a record...I love myself again...Because honestly...I am not impressive, I am no friend, senpai, or anything like the people who left, moved on, or will move on.

So thank you all...and, thanks for everything you did. I'll try to stay to myself, try to not be as needy and if you like to talk, okay, but....Thank you.

[thephoenixnomore]

raggedymanwithaplan

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