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[jclifou]

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;;I am an absolute mess right now. Like, in a good way. But also in a nervous way. Today I finish packing up and check that I've got everything I need; tomorrow, I fly up to see two incredible people that I am HELLACIOUSLY excited to meet! I've had an odd week of it, though, and that's been adding to my stress. The diet I'm on has stopped working in the sense that, despite following it's regulations still, I'm practically back to where I was before starting it. (Wtf, right?) I've had two separate people completely blow me away by sharing their character judgements of me--opinions which I hadn't thought would be nearly so high as apparently they are--and despite how tired I've been lately (who knew paperwork was such a draining experience?), everything just feels. Great. Right. Positive. Like things are falling into place. And I don't know. I'm not used to that, I guess. Anyway. Chins up! Keep smiling! There's no one in the world quite like you, and that in and of itself is extraordinary.

[humanitysong]

Who is your favorite OC?

man I wrote so many,,, I guess it also depends what you see as an OC? would writing a mythological character be an OC since rpers develop them much further than the legend ever could? what about characters like player characters in MMOs? most of them don't have a backstory & you can go crazy with 'em. so I'll just cheat & take one or two from each category ,,, ( rest under cut bcs haha sorry u made me babble about my OCs & it became a stupidly long ramble ).

purely original oc: gwyn .

looks cute. maybe isn't actually that cute. used to be an army general centuries ago & was known for being pretty good at it. the kind of person who kept losses on his side to a minimum but maximized them for the people he fought. at least that used to be kiinda the idea behind him, I really wanna re-visit that OC & re-write stuff. but I will always have a soft spot for him.

OC based on legends : dinadan & cassandra

dinadan from arthurian legends because my boy deserved soso much better. I really think the poor sod would have done better never becoming a knight even if he was potentially the only voice of reason bcs "uh how about we don't murder each other???" . & ofc cassandra of troy. so I am fairly sure I mentioned it once on this blog but I am a librarian, those "re-telling of myths" books ( think soa etc ) are super popular rn so i read some from time to time to be able to recommend them to readers. none of them have ever nailed cassandra. i dunno why esp women seem to love to write her as incredibly 'bitchy'?? so ya know. sometimes you gotta take matters into your own hands. not to say my portrayal is amazing but legit people write her as if she is?? a bad person for disliking the greeks?? ( ya know the army that kept troy under siege for 10 years & killed pretty much her entire family ?? )

oc based on 'insert your character here' media : amaya

look I'll be real, story wise my wol isn't that great. basic backstory to fit into the world's setting. people have done much more & better with their wols. but if I may toot my own horn ................. their design is at least really nice. I will never have a prettier OC & I think whatever my brain did back then that's when my OC brain peaked. won't ever happen again, sorry.

munday questions ( no longer accepting ) // @reddragon-cowboy .

[gargleteeth]

     bUT just because my character enjoys sex doesn't mean i necessarily enjoy writing the sex? it's not that i'm like 'ew gross smut no bad,' it's more like... 'bleh this is boring pls wake me up when the thrusting is over' and while i don't fault anyone for focusing on the physical when it comes to sex, i just can't. it's not my writing style, it's not fun for me.

     fun for me ( when it comes to smutty stuff ) is writing out meaningful sex scenes every once in a blue moon, stuff where i can dive into the emotional spectrum of my character and focus on the feels and the character development of that moment.

     if they're having sex for the first time, if they're having sex for the last time, if something traumatic happened, if they've said i love you, if they're going to say i love you, if they're going to be interrupted, if one of them was worried about the other, if someone got hurt, if whatever happens that i can write about that and not just 'he put the thing in the thing.' and even then, if my partner doesn't want to write even those moments out, that's okay.

     just because i don't roleplay it out doesn't mean that stephanie's not having sex with her boyfriend or w/e. heck, our characters can have a fwb relationship ( bearing she's not in a relationship ) and never rp smut! 

     so idk, tl;dr i guess the point is that i don't fault anyone for roleplaying smut and i don't fault anyone for not roleplaying smut because i fall somewhere in the middle of the two categories? it's not that i don't want to roleplay smut, it's just that i don't want to roleplay it all the time.