#rammy rambles

[k1d0n]

so how’s tumblr doing after the most recent tadc episode ..

[rammystar]

I know it's been ten morbillion years since I've posted but after seeing the recent Gorillaz interview there has been this pure unadulterated joy infecting every part of my body and I will not know rest until I yell into the void hoping to catch the ear of at least one person that cares enough.

Although I /am/ like a day late to finding out about it I find it quite beautiful and maybe even like the starts aligned specifically so that I'd learn about it when I needed it the most; today of all days when I had my first session with my psych so I can finally go through the process of being approved for HRT. This band has followed me since middle school, til I graduated and used it and it's stories as an escape during a very tumultuous time in my life, up until this very moment where I'm STILL obsessed with them. Through pretty much every stage in my life they've been there making music while I discovered new things about myself and my identity, I even have a freaking self insert with a story about accepting himself and transitioning throughout the phases, being loved all the same by the stupid vocalist that has captured my heart. Obviously I don't like to think I'm the most special little guy in this vast universe, but a big parasocial part of me can't help but at least be elated to find out one of the characters that means the most to me also has some things they're discovering about themselves. Whether this sticks or not (and part of me worries that it won't), it just makes me happy that Albarn and Hewlett even made a statement like that in the first place, in such a casual way, about a character beloved by many. Because literally anyone can express themselves differently at any stage in their life, no matter who they are. And I hope it passes the right people off because why are you a Gorillaz fan in the first place if you don't support transgender 2-D. There's at least like two bisexuals and Russel is genderqueer as fuck I truly don't know what to tell you 🙏 Peace and love on planet earth

Edit: oh my god totally forgot to mention as well I showed up to my appointment in the only gorillaz shirt I own it truly was meant to be

[k1d0n]

I’m not grinning ear to ear after that one

[k1d0n]

Episode 33 destroyed me.

[rammystar]

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FREDDY RILEY!! ^_^🐰⚖️

I think I dressed up for this more than I did my own birthday hehe. Anyways sappy message under the cut! 💌

I started playing Identity V around this time last year and was fortunate enough to be there for one of Freddy's birthdays. It's crazy to think that an entire year has passed since then, and I've come to adore him so greatly. I treasure the highly underrated, and this guy does not get enough slack from the Fandom. Maybe that's why I was so drawn to him in the first place. My life was changing quite a bit during that time, as I survived my first ever job, but my love for him and this game has been a constant. Let's hope he and the rest of game 4 get some more attention from the devs. It's nice to see them expanding upon the lore from the older games!

[rammystar]

More people saw my Freddy Riley posts than I thought they would so I thought I'd throw some non-selfship stuff out there for fellow Freddy fans :D I eat sleep and breathe Inverse Mercury now and I wish they weren't so vague with essence lore sometimes cause I want to know everything about him... I have some headcanons of my own that I'll put under the cut :3 And if anyone has ideas of their own or something they disagree with I'm very curious to know!! These are very loose ideas and I think I could be easily swayed on some things

💠 I got the idea stuck in my head that he shares some loose similarities to Shang Tsung from MK1, so in my mind now I feel like Inverse Mercury had a similar upbringing. Freddy wasn't raised in a particularly wealthy part of the realm, but very early on he realized how to skillfully wield his greatest weapon– his words– to his advantage. Much like one of his deductions in the game says, he needs to "seem" hard-working, because those are the kind of people that others put their trust in. And as Shang-Tsung is described in his wiki, he is "Too lazy for hard labor and too shifty for honest work". I think Freddy, growing up, valued his own wits above all else, and thought he was too good for the life he had. He strived to be more, but at the time he had to settle with being this snake oil salesman.

💠 Because of how vague the lore is presented I can't tell if Inverse Mercury is still technically related to the law and acts as an attorney? If this is the case then I imagine he used a lot of his downtime burying his nose in books, having an insatiable thirst for knowledge because he knew his intelligence would be a great shortcut into achieving a lot of his goals. And also maybe he studied law in particular to be able to find loopholes to protect himself from getting into legal trouble LOL

💠 Now I don't really know how he came into a position of power, to the point where he had people groveling at his feet like in the trailer. In Shang Tsung's case he got his power from a 'mysterious' benefactor (who turns out to be an alternate version of himself), which I don't think is likely to happen in Freddy's case. For now I just choose to believe the nature of his job and his passion for reading brought him to the ancient books that he familiarized himself with, and used to his advantage. I also think he was probably more well off than Shang Tsung was at the very least, so he probably had easier access to these powerful texts.

💠 Finally the dynamic that Freddy has with Eli in this essence reminds me a lot of the dynamic between Shang Tsung and Syzoth (assuming I interpreted the essence lore correctly). In summary (also referenced from the wiki), Shang Tsung once asked to study Syzoth for his unique ability, and when he refused, Shang Tsung threatened his family– effectively manipulating Syzoth into working for him. Eli similarly seems to have been deceived or manipulated in some way, and we know something like this would definitely not be below Freddy Riley (as much as I love that man).

These are all the ideas I have so far 🫠 I'm so normal about Inverse Mercury I promise (this hasn't even touched on how I wish I could insert my sona into the narrative, but this was supposed to be Freddy Riley centric because I felt bad posting so much about the two when I also just want to show my appreciation for him alone. I did have a little oneshot for them that I wanted to write, but I thought maybe I'd turn it into an x reader despite the very little demand I see for stuff like that because I wonder if maybe people would prefer that instead JDNDJD who knows... )

[k1d0n]

Locked tf out

[rammystar]

○ Which Flower Are You? ○

Thank you @lotusdearest for the tag ily!! I took this for myself, since me and Rammy are essentially one in the same. Feel free to take the quiz for yourself !! ☆

Idk I like flowers more than the average person so here we are

》 You are stubborn and you know it. Self aware and hard to impress, you have a close circle of friends and like it that way. You are beautifully unique, with interests that span far and wide. Likely the dark horse of the family, you've always felt misunderstood. You are a creature of habit and avoid change if possible. You are a selfless and giving lover, seeing your partner as the light of your life. Those who are lucky enough to get to know you, would do anything to keep you within their lives. You are unapologetically yourself and value others who are the same. But sometimes, you miss out on opportunities due to your stubbornness and perhaps feel like life is passing you by. Don't be afraid to step outside of your comfort zone my love, everyone you encounter there will find you just as exquisite as you always hoped to be. 《

I think a lot of this is true to life (especially the emphasis on being stubborn) but I am reluctant to accept a lot of the kinder stuff lol I'll let other people decide how accurate that is. I really don't have many selfship people to tag but I will uhhh tag @seaside-lovers and encourage anyone who sees this to also participate if you'd like!!