#ranting. sorry

[opiazapine]

Feeling like nobody else had a shit mom sometimes. Like my mom tried to sabotage me multiple times. From early childhood. I'm gonna be 27 this year and I still have nightmares about my mom WTF. Like wake up in a cold sweat at 3AM type dreams. Prazosin didn't even put a dent in that. I just get stoned drink some chamomile tea and hope for the best at night now.

[wonderland-ed]

i have literally no motivation to do work. i fucking hate wester civ with the worlds worst teacher and its 11pm and i have an entire essay outline to do for tomorrow but my teacher uses big words that i dont understand and i dont even know what to write because i dont understand his outline format.

why am i such a pessimist and why cant i help it? like my mom just walked into my room and told me there will be a 4 day weekend in november. it will be here before you know it. and i just respond but think about all the stuff we still have to do before it. like no. shes trying to make me less stressed and i just won’t accept it.

[floopowderchristmastroy]

Every time I learned about racism in the past, it felt distant to me. I knew it made me feel angry, disappointed, but I never could see it actually happening, because it just sounded so disgusting. I accepted that it happened, but could never feel the reality.

But I realize the human race is still confused, angry, and clueless.

We still live in the world of homophobia, we know of the horrible conditions of agriculture and treatment of animals in mega farms, and we are aware of the racism that has settled itself comfortably in our culture. 

Improvement happens when we question where we are, how we behave, and what our consequences may be. I know that majority of us turn a blind eye to what may shake up our norms and cause discomfort, but I also know that we have more than enough potential to be another generation that caused a wave of change.

I realize that we have so much to give. 

[shawnthornton22]

Seguin is really pissing me off lately. If you're going to start something with a girl the week before playoffs, that's stupid. He needs to focus and just play hockey. I don't care if he fucks the entire city of Boston after the playoffs, but for now it needs to end. 

[astro-gnome]

Man. Why do people ALWAYS want to start shit?? I try to do my fucking job as best as I can, and SOMEONE always has to bitch and moan about it. Well, if you don't fucking like what I'm doing, tell me why you don't like it and help me to correct whatever is wrong in the best way possible for everyone. Then we'll all be cool. However, if you're just fucking moaning because I made you have to do your job as well, PISS OFF.

This is my first busy day, cut me a tiny bit of slack! Where you there to see how much crap I did? No. Fucking tell me that I'm not refilling stuff when I HAVE refilled stuff. Jeez. And while you're at it, why don't you check and see what's low while you're floating around 10 minutes early. Or is that my fault, too?? Oh, and yeah. The other employees who are busier than me doing their jobs are really supposed to be helping us out instead.

Get real.