#suddenly thinking

[thedailydeedle]

[namjoonchronicles]

I just feel like Namjoon is too precious to be loved by someone like me... He deserves so much more.

[schokii-mello]

please, i just want to feel okay again, i just want to be happy again without having to depend on someone else. it's horrible and i don't like it and i don't know what to do?? i don't want to feel alone anymore, to be sad and start to cry and be emotional because i see something sad or with a deeper meaning. when did it start? when will it end?? my head is so full and so empty and i am alone when someone is right next door and sometimes it's hard to breathe. there is just SOMETHING i need but i can't grasp it. it's right here, it's looking into my face and telling me to get it but i can't even see it?? it's just MISSING and i feel empty without it?? i am sad and alone and i feel fucking stupid and the worst thing is that i feel bad about it. i'm sorry, i shouldn't be like that, i want to help you and i don't want you to look at me and feel sorry for me or to worry about me. i should be happy, i have a wonderful family, financially secure and friends that are so awesome that i can't even describe how much i love them so what the fuck is missing?? what do i need?? am i just greedy?? do i just need to feel bad, am i doing this to myself?? i just want to go - where? who knows. death is not the next big thing, it's just a step, it's like taking someones hand and moving on, another path but i don't want to take this path, it seems to be so easy and easy was never my way. 

I'm just stupid and overthinking and now I feel better after writing everything down but I still don't know about this hole and how to fill it. Maybe someday I'll see?

[thesoffgengar]

Sometimes I reminisce about my first week on tumblr

Then I always remember whenever i look at my dash

That the first people who greeted me were the yuri fans

[xmasuchii]

When i was little, i thought parasols where kinda dumb for functionality’s sake but cute if accessorized well. Now i am older and get insanely bad dizzy spells when walking directly in the sun for like 5 minutes and need a parasol to walk the dog in the afternoon just so I won't get a 103°F fever later on in the day.

[floopowderchristmastroy]

Every time I learned about racism in the past, it felt distant to me. I knew it made me feel angry, disappointed, but I never could see it actually happening, because it just sounded so disgusting. I accepted that it happened, but could never feel the reality.

But I realize the human race is still confused, angry, and clueless.

We still live in the world of homophobia, we know of the horrible conditions of agriculture and treatment of animals in mega farms, and we are aware of the racism that has settled itself comfortably in our culture. 

Improvement happens when we question where we are, how we behave, and what our consequences may be. I know that majority of us turn a blind eye to what may shake up our norms and cause discomfort, but I also know that we have more than enough potential to be another generation that caused a wave of change.

I realize that we have so much to give.