more of valley’s ramblings (and potential ethic debates with myself) aw yeah 🔥
i feel like i LIVE by fairness i dont know why but i genuinely cant stand (in the sense that its so fucking overwhelming to me because punishment is literally a death sentence in my eyes) getting berated or punished for something feels 10x worse when you were never apart of it
main reason why i fucking HATED my 4th grade teacher. oh my god this man would punish everyone no matter who caused it and it isnt fair and i could never accept that (and i still havent). there’s times where its reasonable why everyone would be punished (ex. whoever being responsible being anonymous) and yet it still hurts so much to me mentally
its like my brain will default to sobbing until i get what i want like a toddler when theres an imbalance in treatment and it is AWFUL/neg. i dont know why i act like this and i dont want to act like this and yet i still don’t understand why people hate me when all i do is be the smart one and throw tantrums because things don’t go to plan. fucking hell
i dont know if its just because i have a really strict moral code and i stand by it like my life depends on it or if im just a stupid baby who can’t understand a basic life lesson i should’ve learned so many years ago. not everything in life is fair and i NEED to accept that to make it in society?? if i do im NOT making it 😂😂








