the sad truth...
is that, high school is over and my friends and i already technically went our separate ways... i want to hang out with them but i know they have other stuff to do and whenever i message them randomly, i feel like i'm being a bother for "just" hitting them up... it also makes me mad/jealous about how my boyfriend has the TOTAL freedom to go out whenever and wherever he wants with his friends because he has access to his car (technically whenever even though his dad uses his car from time to time) and his mom can reload his debit card whenever he needs it... while i'm here not able to go out because i don't have money to go out (especially when i need to put gas into my car) since my parents won't even give me money to go out and do whatever, and i'm being stressed out due to the fucking fact that i don't have a place to live in SJ because NO ONE IS FUCKING HELPING ME.... (also because barely anyone accepts pets, let alone 2 cats...) ... i ... i don't know... i just... i want to move out already and i just hate how no one is even helping me... i mean -- my mom found a place but for $1800 and i understand it's the bay area, but she's stupid for thinking that i'm going to go on a train or a bus BY MYSELF in AN AREA I'M NOT USED TO... ... sorry
