#raph posting

[crossroads-system]

Would be really cool if we, a diagnosed system, could interact with fucking anything DID related without the immense amount of aggression targeted at other forms of plurality.

Would be really cool if we, a system who's culture recognizes plurality in multiple forms, could interact with fucking anything plurality related without being treated like an enemy to the DID/OSDD/CDD community.

Would be really cool if we, a system with origins in culture, a DID diagnosis, and dissociative symptoms caused by severe trauma, could interact with or talk about our experiences as a mixed origin system without people CONSTANTLY trying to a. Invalidate our cultural understanding of plurality or b. Invalidating our struggle with dissociative symptoms and their effect on our system.

Would be really cool if we could just fucking exit as ourselves and talk about our unique intersection of cultural and disordered plurality without being forced to pick a fucking side in origin discourse.

[ent0morii]

My 4 OCs whom I love and cherish so much

[crossroads-system]

We are so god damn tired of not being able to interact with content related to our fucking diagnosed CDD or being made to feel like our lived fucking experience as a DID system is suddenly fucking invalid because we have an inclusive view of plurality which is informed by our fucking culture and spirituality.

So fucking sick of seeing shit that is absolutely relevant to our experience then immediately feeling unwelcome to interact with said shit because of exclusionists who can't seem to grasp that DID isn't a fuckin 'alter disorder'. Why am I being excluded from content about my own fucking disorder because I also happen to value and uphold my cultures knowledge and understanding of plurality that extends beyond (and is much fucking older than) DID/OSDD.

Why am I expected to shelve my Indigeneity and my cultural knowledge and spirituality in order to interact with content that is relative to my fuckin life because others can't seem to grasp that western psychology isn't the end all be all to knowledge? Why am I expected to compartmentalize myself and divorce myself from my Indigeneity in order to access posts that could help others.

It's absolute fucking bullshit.

[crossroads-system]

So anyway, even our therapist has mentioned the monumental shift in our system's ability to cooperate and communicate after we moved from viewing each other as solely the result of traumagenic events (pathologized view of our system) to one which incorporates the views of our people on plurality (that plurality is a natural state for some).

That shift was monumental for us. We stopped viewing each other as symptoms and started viewing each of us as traumatized individuals. It helped us recognize that what we originally thought of as 'problem headmates' were more often than not just a headmate dealing with different symptoms of PTSD than the rest of us. It truly helped us investigate and figure out what each of us needed to heal from our own personal manifestations of the trauma we faced.

It also has helped us reframe how we talk about and think about our trauma. Incorporating Indigenous knowledge and understanding of plurality has been an absolute life saver for us.

[crossroads-system]

Been thinking alot about how people use 'attention seeking' in a derogatory way and how it just serves to downplay and perpetuate the serious isolation epidemic many people are facing.

Individualism and colonialization has absolutely obliterated community for so many. Humans are a social species. Lack of interpersonal connection and yes -attention- is detrimental to human health. It can absolutely be traumagenic.

Sick and tired of people using the phrase 'attention seeking' as some kind of gotcha' as if it immediately invalids someone's struggles.

[crossroads-system]

Constantly seeing people argue about who does and doesn't have trauma/ who's trauma is 'valid'. Meanwhile Im just sitting over here like... living in this capitalistic, post colonial nightmare which commodifies our very existence is inherently traumatic. Be so for real right now. No one is getting out of this life without some pretty severe trauma.

[crossroads-system]

Once we stopped looking at our system itself as if it was a response to the plethora of trauma we went through and started realizing that our real issue was that we were all suffering different responses to that trauma things turned around for our system.

We focused on finding coping strategies that worked for each of us who were processing those traumas in different ways.

Once we stopped treating each other like we were the problem and started focusing on the myriad of manifestations of our PTSD we were finally able to over come a good majority of the dysfunction that separated our system.

No one gets credit for the amazing and adaptive people in our system. They didn't 'create us' by abusing us. All they did was sever communication and leave us with dozens of individuals struggling with their own PTSD symptoms in isolation.

Now that we have each other and have worked on our communication and dissociative barriers we get to thrive together. 💚

[crossroads-system]

Shout out to headmates who are/were fictives but have since completely separated from/evolved away from their sources.

I see y'all.