Looking back at ourselves when our plurality was still 'covert' (lol like it wasn't still blaringly obvious) always makes me laugh.
What? There were no signs.
But my mom and I's most common inside joke was that I was low key haunted because my stuff would always go missing or end up in weird places
What? There were no signs.
But I have been told my entire life that I had 'such a unique eclectic personality'
What? There were no signs.
But I constantly said I had the memory of a goldfish and often viewed my memories in third person. 'Like they happened to someone else'
What? There were no signs.
Just a bored, irritated voice that definitely wasn't mine narrating things I did out of boredom and making snarky comments, like I constantly had someone looking over my shoulder (back to the low key haunted jokes)
What? There were no signs.
Except when our old care team ruled out psychosis and schizophrenia without looking further for what the voices could have been and we once again shrugged it off as joking/not joking low key haunted that same voice would respond with 'That's not what I am but if that's what you need to tell yourself in order to cope right now that's fine.' <- (got this response CONSTANTLY and god damn it still grinds my gears 😂 [no but seriously now that we know it cracks us up. Love you Jax])
What? There were no signs.
Except there were several instances in our life before our final syscovery where we straight up told people (usually our mom) that we couldn't be who we were anymore and that things were going to change but it would all be ok.
What? There were no signs.
Except our entire childhood and how we'd get frustrated and angry when people brushed off those in our system as 'just imaginary friends'.
What? There were no signs.
Except going back through old journals and writings all the way back to single digit years we've found conversations we had with each other. We've found our names. We've found pictures of us. We've found drawings of us.
Anyway I could probably go on forever. Long post long; system denial is absolutely bonkers 😂 what do you mean we knew and saw all that and still had a period of time where system recognition startled us? So happy we're past all that for the most part.