To the one I never knew
So early but I still felt you inside me
cynical, mystical, unknowingly using my by third eye to see
You were part of me, your essence joined mine and you were everything I imagined you to be
falling in love, you were mine
faith in the belief we’d make it to the finish line
Holding the soul I prayed for
kept me holding on feeling you to my core
night after night , your love grew within me
Until drops of blood brought me back to loss
unsure if I was able to relive the burden of holding another cross
eager to meet you, your name rang true
celebrating your existence
A crash course in persistence
3 lost to the sky before you came along
Your presence I Believed in felt so atrong
by week eight I thought we had come far enough along
that’s when my body threw a fit
rejecting you despite the love I lit
but even that wasn’t wnough
your name rings in my ear, your heartbeat meted away all my fear
Until your heartbeat suddenly disappeared
once again I am reliving those fears
Feeling the pain of diapoointment
carried me into the depths of dispair
deep down still wishing you’d appear
silent suffering that only some will ever come to know
the suffering that lingers in my mind body and soul
for your life your soul I will never know
















