#rayminteye

[far-away-home]

Soul That Got Away

@rayminteye

Catherine had been a reaper for a while before she had met Ray- or Saeran Choi as he was officially named on her list. He was a special case indeed. As a reaper, she was supposed to collect the souls of those scheduled to die and she very much enjoyed her job. Not having such a great life as a human, she loved watching people’s cinematic records. They could range from depressing to moving and full of joy. As a human that had not had much of an attachment to life, this job had opened her eyes. Just because she had not been fortunate enough to live and be happy didn’t mean other humans didn’t deserve to- life could be beautiful. Humans were fascinating. 

Saeran had been an interesting case. She was supposed to watch him for about 3 weeks before his time was up. He was struggling mentally and physically and she felt bad for him but he was her assignment and she was not allowed to be attached. Reapers were neutral. 

When his time had come, she had decided to let him live. It was a very rare case when the assignment was allowed to live but he had managed to achieve it. He was struggling but he had such great potential to do good in the world! So she examined his cinematic record and gave it back to him, explaining that he had great potential. With the gift of his life back, she had made him promise to do something with the potential. She visited him from time to time, like she was now. 

“Hey Sae!” She addressed him casually with a small wave, like she had not just broke into his apartment as she sat on the edge of his window sill. “How ye daein?” 

[mighty-sevenzeroseven]

[[ongoing rp with @rayminteye; cont. from here]]

Saeran whimpered softly. He moved his hand over his heart as he tried to calm his breathing. “I’ve been bad… I stopped taking it for too long… if I took it more often it wouldn’t be this bad…” he replied softly.

“I’m sorry. Please don’t worry about me..” he said softly. “He’s not as loud now… he won’t be back for a while..” Saeran said with an almost happy sigh. He could at least protect someone… “maybe I’m not useless,” he said out loud even though he didn’t mean to.

“But Saeran,” Saeyoung put a hand on his shoulder and tried to get a look at his face, “you wouldn’t be hurting right now if you would stop taking it forever. I’m sure things will get better and you’ll be able to think more clearly if you don’t depend on it anymore...”

Everything about the situation made him anxious. His brother was even more unstable than he thought. A split personality. Addicted to a drug. Constant abuse. Possible symptoms of ptsd... this was all Rikas fault. Oh, how much he hated Rika. How could she do something like that to someone so precious. To someone so innocent. To someone who’s always had a bad life, how could you just make that even worse. The way Rika was now, is something he could never understand.

“I will always worry about you. I always worried about you since we were children and I never stopped doing so... also, you’re not useless, you never were. You’re the person who kept me going. The person who kept me motivatied, even when we were apart from eachother, I knew, you’ll always be there. I’ve always carried you in my heart.”

[never--error]

@rayminteye continued from here

The girl’s eyes widened slightly at the words she just heard. She glanced at the boy curiously, trying to judge what kind of interest would he have. Obviously, coming to any conclusion was impossible as she didn’t know him, yet. Though the curiosity was strong.

“Ah, is that so?” She smiled softly. “How can I help you then?”

[askhandsomezen]

@rayminteye

“Oh, look. Yet another AI wanderers up to the developer… what do you want?”

Well... I saw your name once in a chatroom with my friends and... They said it was impossible and thought it was a glitch or something...? But since you are answering me, I know I’m not crazy. What do you want?

[mighty-sevenzeroseven]

[[rp with @rayminteye​ continued from here]] 

Ray continued to drink his tea. He took a deep breath as he put down the tea cup. He was pleading with the bad boy to calm down. He shook his head.

“How am I supposed to believe that. How am supposed to believe when I know the truth,” he growled, tears threatening to show in his own eyes. “You left me behind because I was weak and useless!” He said and slammed his hands down on the table.

“And just like the Savior said, you’re here to take me from my purpose now that you know I’m useful,” he growled “You didn’t try to contact me at all. You didn’t come back for me!! I waited! I waited!” He roared, tears coming down his face now.

“Just looking at you makes my blood boil and makes the bad boy in me want to jump across the table and strangle you!”

Saeyoung flinched as Ray’s fists hit the table.

“I never saw you as usesless, I alwas loved you, I still do. I’m the one who’s weak and useselss! I’m the one who wasn’t strong enought to protect you. I’m the one who wasn’t there when you needed me the most. I’m the one who wasn’t strong enough to reach out to you before. I’m the one who’s at fault. I’m the one who’s weak. You say you know the truth? You’ve never talked to me so how can you know the truth about how I feel?”

His whole body was shaking, he was so afraid to lose his brother for the second time. That’s something he wouldn’t be able to bare.

“Taking you away from your purpose? Think about it, are you really okay with what Rika is doing to you? Are you okay that she’s just locking you in a room all day? Are you okay that she’s just using you? Is this you or is it the drug talking? I tried to reach out to you so many times. Just go ahead and ask V, he told me every time that he delivered the message. I didn’t come back for you before, but I am here now, so listen to what I have to say and think about it!” He pointed at himself.

“You wanna strangle me? Go ahead, if that’s what it takes. Hit me, strangle me, I don’t care.”

[mighty-sevenzeroseven]

[[rp with @rayminteye continued from here]]

He was about to protest that they needed him but he could probably even do his work remotely at Saeyong’s house… He could go for a bit. He didn’t need the elixir at the moment… the bad boy seemed under control and he could bring a bit….

He had to admit he was tuning Saeyoung out a bit until he heard about the letters. His brother had written to him?! Multipul Times… his blood boiled at the thought that V had been so cruel to even deny him that. “I..I think I’d like to go with you. I don’t want to be gone long but I want to know the truth…” he replied carefully.

There was still some worry he harbored about Saeyoung but he hoped his brother could dispel those fears. That and maybe he could get Saeyoung to join Paradise with him. The Savior would be ever so proud of him for that. “I’d like to talk to you more…” he added which was a sever understatement. Maybe he could learn a few things too

“I’m so happy you decided to come home with me!! I don’t want to force you to stay with me, I don’t want to hold you hostage, so you are free to leave whenever you want. I just... want that you know the truth about me, about what happened.”

Saeyoung said, but he did hope that Saeran would stay with him. He knows how horrible the paradise is, how the people are being brainwashed and drugged, that this environment is toxic for his brother. Maybe he would be able to make him realize the bad side of paradise, the bad sides of Rika. He really just wanted to get his brother out of there, whatever price he had to pay. Maybe he’d even be able to get V into the conversation, but it was too early to think about that.

“Take my hand brother, let’s go home.”

[mighty-sevenzeroseven]

[[rp with @rayminteye continued from here]]

Ray listened to every word his brother said. Hung on every one of them now that the doubt was placed there he couldn’t stop thinking. He took a moment to look at Saeyoung and it was easy to see he was looking for a tell. A sign that the man in front of him was lying. All he found were Saeyoung’s sincere eyes and it bother him to no end. There had to be a lie! The Savior couldn’t have lied to him.

It was easy to see the longer he searched for a lie the more frustrated he got. “Why would I check it when I know what kind of hacker you are?” He growled, deciding to attack him for his job. Trying to disprove it on grounds of being no better. “You could fabircate and steal any information you want. You’re a slave to money and personal desire. That’s why you’re not fit fir paradise and why you are jealous I have find it. Trying to find faults in it that don’t exist,” he said, but his voice was soft, convincing himself.

“It’s more compliacted than that. I’m not just a salve to money. I’m a slave to my company, they are just using me for their own good. I gave my life to them. I gave my life to my company, in return V promised me to protect you, but obviously he broke his promise. I will leave the disk with you, if you look at it and if you belive me is your own desicion to make.”

He looked into his brothers eyes, clearly seeing all the hurt and all the pain he went through. Ray is just a cover up, he knew, Saeran was still somewhere in there.

“You’re right, I’m not fit for paradise and you’re not fit for it either. No one is fit for this kind of paradise. A paradise doesn’t exist, nothing is perfect and life is cruel, I think we both expierenced that. Saeran look around, you’re not happy here. Even if your ‘saviour’ tells you so, even if the drugs make you feel better, ask yourself, are you really happy? Are you really happy locked into a room all day long? Are you really happy being used by Rika?”

Saeyoung decided it was the right time to hug Saeran. He embraced him, gently stroking his back, trying to comfort him.

“You can be so much more than that. You’re so intelligent and amazing. I always looked up to you during our childehood. You’re a fighter, so please, don’t just give up fighting. Together we can make it, I promise you. I grew stronger too. I will protect you with my life.”

[mighty-sevenzeroseven]

[[ongoing roleplay with @rayminteye cont from here]]

Ray relaxed a little as he heard his brother use his name. “Well. I am happy to prove to you that Mint Eye is truly paradise,” he replied with a huff.

He sighed as he continued to the computer room. When he opened the door, ushering his brother into the room. “Saeyoung,” He said, as he held his arm out.

Saeyoung ghasped as he heard what Ray said about Mint Eye but chose to ignore it. Rika, V, all the lies he’s been told made him so angry, that he knew, if he spoke up now, it wouldn’t end well. But the deception Saeyoung expierienced wasn’t important at that moment.

He followed his brother along the hallway, trying his best to contain all the emotions he supressed for so long. His throat was dry and his stomach upside down, never in his life has he been that nervous. He entered the room wich reminded him of his own workplace and pointed to the chair in the corner. 

“Is it okay if... I have a seat?”