#rcdhoodie

[hisdiversion-gone]

*    ──    💨    𝐜𝐥𝐨𝐬𝐞𝐝 𝐬𝐭𝐚𝐫𝐭𝐞𝐫  ;  𝐫𝐮𝐞 𝐛𝐞𝐧𝐧𝐞𝐭𝐭  .   @rcdhoodie​

“  i never thought i’d see you again .  ”

[lexihowcrd]

   @rcdhoodie​​​ ♥️ for one line.

            ❛ are you.... are you gonna come to the play? ❜

[fzzco]

@rcdhoodie : x.

fez was the older brother rue never had, or really wanted for that matter but he had become the one she quickly needed. sure some might say this dynamic was rather strange. going from being the guy who helped feed her addiction and building some sort of weird familial bond through all of that but that’s just the way it was and it was the way things would always be. 

 out of everyone she’d probably put fez through some of the most, him being the only one really aware of her relapse at the time and having to take care of her, and ash while dealing with some pretty fucked up shit. it was selfish of her to put that amount of pressure on fez but rue was a selfish person especially under the influence of whatever drug she could get her hands on but fez put up with it, for whatever reason that may be he hadn’t fully given up on her despite how much she probably deserved it. so here she goes, she’s clean now and for the first time in her life she was really fucking trying to get better, to ignore the overwhelming anxiety telling her it’s not worth it. she doesn’t wanna end up in a position where her life is in danger again, not after laurie. it had been awake up call for rue and she really meant it this time. however, the work doesn’t end there, there were still a lot of relationships broken by her actions and though she knows it’s unlikely everyone will forgive her right away she needed to get some of the weight off her chest. 

 fez definitely deserved one considering the last time she was here --- she rightfully got herself thrown out and she couldn’t help the anxiety in her chest that it my happen again when coming to apologize but in old fez fashion that just simply wasn’t the case. a sigh of relief leaves her, dark eyes flickering back towards him as she offers a slight nod. “i guess you’re right but....fuck. fez i am so sorry for everything i put you through, really.” she can’t apologize enough. “i hope over time i can actually prove that but for now...i’m sorry”

              it  breaks  his  fucking  heart,  he  won’t  lie  about  that.  seeing  rue  like  this,  knowing  the  hell  she  was  putting  herself  through,  knowing  he  was  the  one  to  hook  her  on  that  shit,  that  there  is  responsibility  that  weights  on  his  shoulders,  it’s  not  easy.  because  he  does  love  her,  he  likes  her  sarcasm,  likes  the  way  she  dresses,  likes  the  way  she  cares  so  damn  much  and  how  kind  &.  honest  she  is.  he  loves  that  kid,  watching  movies  with  her,  smoking  weed  and  talking  shit,  he  had  been  young  and  fucking  stupid  but  somehow  she  had  become  family.  and  if  there’s  one  thing  he  values,  it’s  fucking  family.  for  a  long  time,  it  was  just  him  and  ash,  after  grand - ma  got  sick,  it  was  just  him  &.  ash,  fucking  seven  year  old  kid  that  he  had  to  take  care  of,  no  time  for  friends  or  anyone.  but  he  had  met  rue,  and  she  became  his  friend,  would  come  over,  laughing  and  talking  and  she  just  made  a  home  there,  in  those  moments,  she  managed  to  make  him  fucking  care.

             so  of  course  he  forgives,  forgets  and  forgives,  because  he  can’t  really  blame  her.  he  kept  her  secrets,  didn’t  tell  a  soul  about  her  relapsing,  tried  his  best  to  stop  selling  to  her  but  he  knew  she  would  find  somewhere  else  to  go  :  it  was  a  coward  move  to  stop  selling  her,  as  if  that  would  grant  him  absolution.  it  was  fucking  bullshit.  but  here  she  is,  standing  all  apologetic  and  sad  looking,  drowning  in  her  clothes  with  that  sober  look  in  her  eyes.       ❜  yo,  i  know  ya  sorry,  rue,  don’t  need  t’prove  shit  to  me,  ya  know  ?  ❜       step  aside  is  taken,  door  open  wider  to  welcome  her  in,  mirroring  the  last  time  he  let  her  in,  never  one  to  care  about  giving  chances  to  those  he  loves  :  there’s  so  little  of  them  and  he  might  be  a  fucking  fool,  a  bit  desperate  for  people  to  give  a  shit.      ❜  just  want  ya  to  be  okay,  to  feel  better  and  shit.  i  know  this  shit  ain’t  easy,  ❜       only  understanding  in  his  gaze  :  never  trust  a  fucking  junkie,  but  she’s  his  sister  before  any  of  it.

[featherstcnes]

“   ---------   you always be sayin’ the craziest shit, rue.”

@rcdhoodie​    ♥’d    [   ...   ]

[leftbehiind]

we've been rping since i even came back to rp? even before rue and lexi even though i suck at getting to replies half the time i still love you so much. you're one of the best writers i know.

anonymously tell me your honest opinion about me.

[onetanabe]

  ❝       i      ( ᵀᴴᴵᴺᴷ  )      i      have       that      same      𝑹𝑬𝑫   𝑯𝑶𝑶𝑫𝑰𝑬    .    .    .    .           ❞  

                               rcdhoodie           ,            one-liner.

[fanglust]

        ❛  you  good?  you  look,   ❜  there’s  a  pause  as  he  thinks  about  how  to  phrase  his  next  words.   ❛  well  you  don’t  look  great.  ❜  maybe  not  the  most  polite  way  to  say  it,  but  it’s  the  best  way  he’s  got.  he  chews  on  his  lip  for  a  moment  before  reaching  into  his  backpack  and  pulling  out  a  kitkat.  ❛  want  some  candy?  ❜  

@rcdhoodie​  🦇

[badmemory]

@rcdhoodie​  sent : “why do you have that look on your face?”

"i don’t have a look on my face.” maddy knew she was lying as soon as she words fell past her lips, she’d been a constant mess for the past few days, weeks, time didn’t make sense to her anymore. “this is my normal face.”